Yikes-a-Roozy on Chemo “5”


 I Won’t Let Go Lyrics:

It’s like a storm
That cuts a path
It’s breaks your will
It feels like that

You think you’re lost
But your not lost on your own
You’re not alone

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
If you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won’t let go

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it’s dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all (finds us all)
And we’re too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won’t let you fall

Don’t be afraid to fall
I’m right here to catch you
I won’t let you down
It won’t get you down
You’re gonna make it
Yeah I know you can make it

‘Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you’ve done all you can do
And you can’t cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won’t let go
Oh I’m gonna hold you
And I won’t let go
Won’t let you go
No I won’t

My “WOW(s) yesterday:
An unexpected stellar Complete Blood Count which I attribute completely as a specific answer to the prayers of many. Thank you to those who prayed with me about this. The oncologist had not wanted to start bone marrow stimulation with Neupogen and I’m glad that he didn’t afterall.  There was no logical reason for the counts to improve so much after the trend of progressively increasing decline with the other treatments and no medical intervention other than one skipped chemo a couple weeks ago, but for God:
WBC 5.5 from 2.7 (normal 4.2 -10)
ANC (Absolute Neutrophil Count 3.5 from 1.1 (norma1 1.5 -6.5)
Hgb staying steady around 11.9 (normal 12 -16)
Hct ”              ”              ”         34.3 (normal 37 – 47)
Platelet rising to 268 (normal 140 – 440)
My WOWs also included blessings galore via Jacque, Ruth, and my family and nice chats with nurses and patients
My POW yesterday was a reaction to Taxol which necessitated it being  stopped after running slowly for 8 minutes following  the pre-meds of Decadron, Pepcid, Benadryl, and an anti-nausea drug .  I had something similar happen the time before but it was much milder, short lived, and resolved on it’s own that time. The reaction yesterday was honestly kind of scarey to me but it was resolved pretty quickly by stopping the chemo and giving additional steroid and more Benadryl IV push, bundling me up in blankets, heat packs to my arm pits and an ice pack to my low back. I must have looked like some kind of sick Abonimable Snowman in a recliner or something 😉
CHOW: I especially enjoyed the gift of a tasty, nourishing soup with lots of love sprinkled in there
My oncologist was off today and one of his partners saw me and intervened along with the nurses.  I should get input from my  oncologist next week to see if we will do another trial of Taxol with more pre-meds or switch to another chemo protocol
“Nothing you could ever experience, no matter how terrible or frightening, could ever separate you from the love of God. No tribulation and distress you might ever suffer could be so intense that God’s love for you is not even more fervent. No persecution could be so painful that God’s love cannot bring comfort. Famine might starve you of food, but you will never hunger for the Father’s love. Poverty cannot strip you of God’s compassion, just as even death itself is incapable of robbing you of your heavenly Father’s infinite love.If you base your view of God’s love on your circumstances, you will become confused. There may be times when you will ask, “How could a loving God allow this to happen to me?” You may begin to question what you find clearly stated in the Word of God. God promised that you would never be separated from His love; He did not say that you would never face hardship, persecution, poverty, or danger. If you doubt that God could love you and still allow you to experience difficult experiences, consider the life of Jesus.

If you allow the death of Jesus on the cross to forever settle any questions you might have about God’s love, you will approach difficult circumstances with confidence. Knowing that there will never be anything that could separate you from God’s perfect love, you will watch to see how God expresses His love in each circumstance. Don’t ever judge God’s love based on your circumstances. Instead, evaluate your circumstances from the perspective of God’s love.”

—Unknown Author

Romans 8:35-39

New Living Translation (NLT)

35 Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? 36 (As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”[a]) 37 No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.

38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.


6 thoughts on “Yikes-a-Roozy on Chemo “5”

  1. Lots of praise for stellar blood work – how amazing the power of prayer and faith. You are a shining example Paula – ! Remember that cancer is really never a straight path… lean in and keep strong …… I trust His plan in this crazy, challenging time. You are a warrior….xoxo


  2. Praying for wisdom for doctors and you as you make decisions next week. In the meantime, praying for peace of heart as you recover from yesterday’s treatment. How sweet it is God gave you a better blood count for no explainable reason except He answered prayer. Blessings on your day!


  3. Wow those blood counts are a true blessing!!! And I love your perspective through it all, Paula, you are a true inspiration for me. I’m sorry you had to go through that scare during the chemo treatment, here is a virtual (((HUG))) for you — xox


  4. Loved the song and answered prayer. Am praying for wisdom for you and your doctors on how to proceed. You are an inspiration to all of us!


  5. Praising God over the improvement. Not a mistery to me, it’s the Lord. Still praying for you Paula. Marlene was asking about you. I will tell her.


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