This is what my tub has looked like after my showers these past few days and I’m shedding hair all over the place it seems. I’m sorry if these photos are too gross/TMI–somehow it helps to share my journey. I may ask my family to help me with a buzz cut soon like we did last time because it is less distressing and more empowering (and less of a mess!) to take charge of the inevitable sometimes. I’m still waiting a bit to see if I’m going to get to keep any significant amount of hair before a drastic buzz cut since my oncologist told me that weekly Taxol might possibly just “thin my hair out” rather than render me completely bald. My pillowcase is loaded with hair and I have some see-through spots to a shiny scalp this morning.
Today I got to thinking about a funny anecdote someone else came up with that I love and shared in my blog back in 2011 http://jpoliver.com/wordpress/archives/425 I just pulled up the link to my 9/23/2011 post and am copying and pasting my thoughts from back then below to share with you guys and for me to ponder and chew on again.
I continue to be a “Work in Progress” through all this cancer stuff and the twists, turns, and bumps of life. The process of surrendering and releasing all sorts of details to God besides my hair these days continues. The Lord is not finished with me or any of us yet! May we be like soft, supple clay in our loving Potter’s Hands, yielded and still as He molds and shapes us and conforms us to the image of His Son through the tools of His choosing. He is the One Who can bring beauty from ash heaps and joy after mourning (Isiah 61:3).
Never a Bad Hair Day 🙂
“A woman with breast cancer, going through the rigors of chemo, woke up one morning,
looked in the mirror, and noticed she had only three hairs left on her head.
‘Well,’ she said, ‘I think I’ll braid my hair today.’
So she did and she had a wonderful day.
The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror
and saw that she had only two hairs remaining on her head.
‘H-M-M,’ she said, ‘I think I’ll part my hair down the middle today.’
So she did and she had a grand day.
The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed
that she had only one lonely hair on her head, hanging on for dear life.
‘Well,’ she said, ‘Today I’m going to wear my hair in a pony tail.’
So she did, and she had a fun, fun day.
The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and
noticed that there wasn’t a single hair on her head.
‘YAY!’ she exclaimed. ‘I don’t have to fix my hair today!’”
I got a good chuckle out of this funny, wise little story. 🙂