“When Does the ‘Best Thing That Ever Happened to Me’ Part of Cancer Begin?”

Image result for cartoons breast cancer


I understand where this lady in the cartoon  is coming from and am counting on Romans 8:28 for the “Good part of cancer”…  “The best thing that ever happened to me” part.  On the way to chemo #2/12  today I had an unusual thought about a book that  I read to my children and they read to me over and over when they were little and learning to read many years ago (They are now 23, 19,and 17–WOW, how time FLIES!). Here’s how my adapted version of Dr Seuss’  Green Eggs and Ham went in my head:


I would not like cancer or chemo
here or there.
I would not like them
I do not like
cancer or chemo
I do not like them,
Sam-I-am…and never will!


At the risk of sounding negative:

Honestly,I.REALLY.hate.all. this. cancer.stuff!  I’d put it in the yukky, mean, nasty, and doesn’t-fight-fair Category of Life.


I can say this same exact thing at the risk of being authentic since my heart is like Saran Wrap before God anyway and I can be real and bring all these circumstances and emotions before Him and pour out my heart before Him.


I prayed that my IV treatment today would be uneventful other than total eviction of cancer from my body going on and it all went smoothly.  I am receiving excellent, attentive care and thorough patient education through this process. While there, I get to catch up on a little reading and enjoy chatting with my DH and wonderful nurses and inspiring fellow cancer and blood disease warriors when I and others are not napping  from the IV Benadryl and other pre-meds.   Tonight I am very weary but all keyed up from the IV steroid and my feet are more numb and the tips of my toes feel like they have been burned: more neuropathy.  I DO NOT LIKE THIS, SAM-I-AM!!!!  And so I say, “For this I have Jesus”, and He says to me, “For this you have me”.  Please God, defend my healthy cells, I sure can’t do that, and in Your grace, please make all the side effects that happen to me temporary and not permanent.



Romans 8:28 (NLT)

28 And we know that God causes everything to work together[a] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.


This beautiful song encouraged me today.  I think you’ll be glad if you listen to it:


“I Am Not Alone”

When I walk through deep waters
I know that You will be with me
When I’m standing in the fire
I will not be overcome
Through the valley of the shadow
I will not fear[x2:]
I am not alone
I am not alone
You will go before me
You will never leave meIn the midst of deep sorrow
I see Your light is breaking through
The dark of night will not overtake me
I am pressing into You
Lord, You fight my every battle
And I will not fear[x2:]
I am not alone
I am not alone
You will go before me
You will never leave me[x4:]
You amaze me
Redeem me
You call me as Your ownYou’re my strength
You’re my defender
You’re my refuge in the storm
Through these trials
You’ve always been faithful
You bring healing to my soul[x6:]
I am not alone
I am not alone
You will go before me
You will never leave me

Meditating on the truth of Romans 8:28,


Update:  Joy found this online:

Inline image 1

I guess lots of people have the same thought as me, Sam-I-Am!

6 thoughts on ““When Does the ‘Best Thing That Ever Happened to Me’ Part of Cancer Begin?”

  1. Oh Paula love ….. take all of this angst ….. and just smother it with humor, with your undeniable grace! feel it and smother it with strength! You are entitled to every emotion ! Remember – you may have cancer but cancer does not have you!

    Praying and love you!!!


  2. Thank you, Paula, for sharing your heart – and for sharing this beautiful, meaningful song, “I Am Not Alone”. No matter what — I am not alone. I thank God for You, Dear Friend!


  3. It is hard Paula! So hard. Thankfully God understood ands that totally! His heart aches for your having the go thru this. But yes, we ask Him to have these treatments kill the cancer cells! And yes we can Alaska Him to protect all of the rest of you! He has you covered Paula. He loves you and is going thru this with you!


  4. Glad to hear of an uneventful treatment this time. I’m all for boring in this case.

    Thank you, Lord for how smoothly it went and for all the good people Paula has helping her. Help her shine for You in that place where You have put her.


  5. Dearest Paula,
    I am sorry to hear that you are battling this again, but I know you can beat it with Jesus’ help. I know what it is for I too went through it earlier with you.
    You are always so upbeat and that song is so true. Lean on Jesus and trust in Him. He knows best and will do what is best for you. May God continue to bless you dear friend.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s