Q. What does a thesaurus eat for breakfast?
A. A synonym roll.
(Thanks for the smile, Onecia!)
Last week Joy and I went to the hairdressers. She donated 10 inches of her beautiful blonde hair to Pantene’s Beautiful Lengths program for free wigs for cancer patients in my honor http://pantene.com/en-us/experience-main-section2/beautiful-lengths which meant a lot to me, and I got mine cut shortish in prep for the transition of it either thinning or going bald. Waves have popped out at this length which is kind of fun. Internet info says to plan on complete hair loss with Taxol. I am preparing for bald-as-an-eagle all over my body like last time (except I still had to shave my legs–what a kicker on that one, huh?!) and that way I’ll look at it as a special blessing and a gift if I get to keep any hair after chemo. I’m not typically a “butt shakin’ gal” but here’s my Bald-Headed Blue song to sing and dance to this morning, the day before chemo #2 :
“If you do not like my peach, you can not rub my fuzz” Ha, ha!
“Mirror, mirror on the wall, I’m still here and standin’ tall…It’s hair today and gone tomorrow. I can let it down the drain or I can wallow in the sorrow. Dance with death or dance with life: which one do I choose?”
I choose life, that’s what I choose!
Luke 12:7 (NLT)
7 And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows.
6-7 “What’s the price of two or three pet canaries? Some loose change, right? But God never overlooks a single one. And he pays even greater attention to you, down to the last detail—even numbering the hairs on your head! So don’t be intimidated by all this bully talk. You’re worth more than a million canaries.
Starting over the weekend and since then I’ve been hit with a number of various and sundry chemo side effects. The most concerning are neuropathy symptoms. I started the first round of chemo last week with existing mild residual neuropathy in my feet. In 2011 I stopped at 5 out of the 6 planned treatments with Taxotare and Carboplatin because of the resulting significant neuropathy in my hands, feet, and face which mostly did resolve over time thankfully. Back then it also made my eyes and face twitch which was challenging and caused occasional involuntary drooling—not my cup-o-tea to say the least! I was so happy when God healed that part up!!!
Because I already have neuropathy at the get-go, it puts me at greater risk of it’s impact during the planned 12 weekly IV doses of Taxol. Apparently many patients have to stop early with weekly Taxol and skip some doses because of it. I wish chemo didn’t attack the healthy parts of my body along with cancer cells (and side effects tend to be cumulative) but it’s already doing that and I’m sure feeling it. I feel rather defenseless and helpless to protect myself from the difficult effects of chemo, like neuropathy. I know without a doubt that God can defend my healthy cells and make the cancerous ones die and heal me completely…and yet: if that is not his plan for me, I know He is ALWAYS up to something good in my life and I can trust Him with ALL He allows, and that He will give me His strength and grace…always and no matter what.
Thank you all for praying! It means so much to me to have your support and folks cheering me on. It really helps, thank you! 🙂