EM Bounds on Prayer

 An entertaining moment by Rick Perry joking about his memory slip from the last debate: http://www.therightscoop.com/rick-perry-cleverly-jokes-about-gaffee-from-last-debate/




Quote from EM Bounds  God and Prayer- The Reality of Prayer “Almighty God is concerned in our praying. He wills it, He commands it, He inspires it. Jesus Christ in Heaven is ever praying. Prayer is His law and His life. The Holy Spirit teaches us how to pray. He prays for us ‘with groanings which cannot be uttered’. All these show the deep concern of God in prayer.  It discloses very clearly how vital it is to His work in this world, and how far-reaching are its possibilities.


 “Preaching and the prayers of God’s saints should fully declare and fulfill the will of God for the salvation of all men as they wrestle in their closet for this sublime end.  God’s heart is set on the salvation of all men. This concerns God.  He has declared this in the death of His Son by an unspeakable voice and every movement on earth for this end pleases God. And so He declared that our prayers for the salvation of all men are well pleasing in His sight. The sublime and holy inspiration of pleasing God should ever move us to prayer for all men.  God eyes the closet, and nothing we can do pleases Him better than our large-hearted, ardent praying for all men.  I Tim 2:13    Jesus Christ,…died for all men…On earth He lived and prayed and died for all men. His life, His death, and His exaltation in Heaven all plead for men.  Is there any loftier employment, more honorable, more divine, than to pray for men? To break the thrall which binds them, the hell which holds them and lift them to immortality and eternal life????”


 Lord, every single good gift comes from You… 


(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/




435. My son Nicholas keeping us up to date with political affairs


436. A fun time with the Pierces and Debbie Friday night


437. By prayer daily toil is sanctified and enriched, and pardon is secured, and Satan is defeated! Prayer has all the force of God in it. Prayer can get anything which God has. Thus prayer has all of its plea and its claim in the name of Jesus Christ, and there is nothing too good or great for God to give that name.  God’s children pray.  They ask Him for all things – for everything.  Answered prayer brings God near, and assures men of His being.  None are so needy as man, none are so able and anxious to supply every need and any need as God…Prayer forms the very center of the heart and will of God concerning men. (EM Bounds)

438. I, Paula, will ‘Rejoice evermore, pray without ceasing, and in everything give thanks. For this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for concerning ME.’


1/6ths done with radiation: 5/6ths to go

We saw these two guys at a Christian comedy show last night.  We had a good time laughing.
(Here is another “ism” he shared in a newsletter that a reader sent in that I thought was funny ‘”Are you going to be there until you leave?'”  😉
My friend Sharon passed along some gems by Elizabeth George:

“Joy sings in the fire.  Joy glorifies God through tears and pain.  Joy spurs us to give thanks for God’s goodness when circumstances are not good.  Joy prompts the offering of the sacrifice of praise when life gives us no apparent reason to celebrate.”
Welp, I am now 1/6 of the way done with radiation: 25 more treatments to go. Hooray for progress!  It’s going OK. My skin is holding up so far.  I am very tired but that may also have to do with after chemo effects and the trouble I have sleeping.   I am keeping active and busy. 🙂
Have a good weekend, everybody!
“The smallest act is greater than the best of intentions”
Lord, every single good gift comes from You… 
(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/
432. If you saw me without a hat  you  can still see clear through to my scalp but I am thanking God for the new sprouts of  fine, soft hair that is now shooting straight up like a baby’s does. 🙂 I am so grateful that I won’t always look like a bald guy when my hat or wig is off. 🙂   Right now it looks like I’ll be a salt and pepper gal–perhaps mostly salt, it’s still so short  I’m not sure.  Thank YOU Lord for whatever new hair you give me.
433.    Hooray that I’ll get a brand new body in Heaven and this is not my real home.  Lord, help me LIVE as a faithful AMBASSiDORS FOR CHRIST.
434. “…with the sacrifice of praise, the very hindrances to joy become the soil out of which joy blossoms.” (Elizabeth George)  Thank You for putting a song of praise to You  in my heart, Lord.

Prov 3:13-15 and James 1:5

“Two antennas met on a roof, fell in love and got married. The
ceremony wasn’t much, but the reception was excellent.” 😉
Don’t Bungee Jump Naked (G Rated)


Proverbs 3:13-15

 13 Joyful is the person who finds wisdom,
      the one who gains understanding.
 14 For wisdom is more profitable than silver,
      and her wages are better than gold.
 15 Wisdom is more precious than rubies;
      nothing you desire can compare with her.

“Wisdom-insights into the nature of God and the ways of life-has more value that Bill Gate’s bank account.  It’s more precious than the crown jewels of England, the treasures of the Louvre, and the hidden wealth of the Vatican.  In fact, nothing compares with it…But you don’t find these gems at the bottom of a cereal box or enclosed in cellophane and tucked inside a Happy Meal.  Many of them, perhaps most of them, come through long years of seeking God, waitng on God, and trusting Him through the most difficult and heartbreaking of circumstances.”
–By Joni Eareckson Tada in A Lifetime of Wisdom: Embracing the Way God Heals You

James 1:5

 If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. (NLT)

 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.(NKJV)

If any of you is deficient in wisdom, let him ask of the giving God [Who gives] to everyone liberally and ungrudgingly, without reproaching or faultfinding, and it will be given him.(AMP)
Lord, every single good gift comes from You… 
(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/


429.Martina McBride’s song: “I’m gonna love you through it” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYNOXRifXKQ&ob=av2e
430. Whenever I lack wisdom, I can ask my generous God who will give wisdom to me liberally and without reproach (James 1:9)
431 Happy am I who finds wisdom and joyful am I who gains understanding;  For wisdom’s proceeds to me are better than the profits of silver,
      And her gain than fine gold. She is more precious to me than rubies,  And all the things I may desire cannot compare with her. (Prov 3:5-6)

When I Think of the Wisdom and Scope of God’s Plan…


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GIVE THANKS “Oh Lord, who has mercifully given us so much, grant us one more thing, a grateful heart.” Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life.  It turns what we have into enough, and more.  It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity.  It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.  Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow.  ~Melody Beattie “Gratitude can transform common days into thanksgivings, turn routine jobs into joy, and change ordinary opportunities into blessings.” — William Arthur Ward “If you concentrate on finding whatever is good in every situation, you will discover that your life will suddenly be filled with gratitude, a feeling that nurtures the soul.” — Rabbi Harold Kushner If you haven’t all the things you want,be grateful for the things you don’t have what you wouldn’t want.Unknown

1 Chronicles 16:34

 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good!
      His faithful love endures forever

On November 3rd my sister Betsy emailed my family and I the following “Word of the Day”   in honor of my Dad who would have been 86 this year on that day had he still been alive.  He died of brain cancer years ago.  My Dad was quite a guy in a million ways.  Boy, I miss him!   We all remember Dad using this word when he wanted to express the meaning of chewing over something figuratively.  We thought it was pretty cool as kids  to be able to do something with one’s mind like cows did with their cud. 🙂
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Word of the Day




ruminateAudio PronunciationROO-muh-nayt
1 :
to engage in contemplation : meditate
2 :
to chew again what has been chewed slightly and swallowed : chew the cud





When you ruminate you chew something over, either literally or figuratively. Literal rumination may seem a little gross to humans, but to cows, chewing your cud (that’s partially digested food brought up from the stomach for another chew) is just a natural part of life. Figurative ruminating is much more palatable to humans; that kind of deep, meditative thought is often deemed quite a worthy activity. The verb “ruminate” has described metaphorical chewing over since the early 1500s and actual chewing since later that same century. Our English word derives from and shares the meanings of the Latin “ruminari,” which in turn derives from “rumen,” the Latin name for the first stomach compartment of ruminant animals (that is, creatures like cows that chew their cud).
Name That Synonym: What synonym of “ruminate” rhymes with “yonder”?
This is a passage I memorized a couple years ago and I’ve been joyfully ruminating over the delightful truths lately, chewing it over and over in my mind:
Ephesians 3:14-21

Eph 3:14-1515 When I think of the wisdom and scope of God’s plan, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father, the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth.

Eph 3:16 I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will give you mighty inner strength through his Holy Spirit.

Eph 3:17 And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in him. May your roots will go down deep into the soil of God’s marvelous love.

Eph 3:18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love really is.

Eph 3:19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is so great you will never fully  understand it. Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God.

Eph 3:20 Now all glory to God!  By his mighty power at work within us, he is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to  ask or hope.

Eph 3:21 May he be given glory in the church and in Christ Jesus forever and ever through endless ages. Amen.

Lord, every single good gift comes from You…  




(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/


425. My friends Sonia and Linda’s example to me of  their memorizing many, many passages of Scripture: entire chapters, Psalms, even  whole books of the Bible if I remember correctly. They have challenged the children and I over the years  to make memorization and meditation of God’s Word a part of our lives.  What a blessing!  I wish I did more.  I am thankful for the verses I’ve memorized and desire to do more.
426. Ruminating on Ephesians 3:14-21
427. Sharon accompanying me to radiation Monday and Tuesday–great fellowship and prayer together!
428. Thanksgiving for the prayers and encouragement of dear folks.

Psalm 91



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Psalm 91

 1 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
         Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
 2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
         My God, in Him I will trust.”
 3 Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler[a]
         And from the perilous pestilence.
 4 He shall cover you with His feathers,
         And under His wings you shall take refuge;
         His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
 5 You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
         Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
 6 Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
         Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.
 7 A thousand may fall at your side,
         And ten thousand at your right hand;
         But it shall not come near you.
 8 Only with your eyes shall you look,
         And see the reward of the wicked.
 9 Because you have made the LORD, who is my refuge,
         Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
 10 No evil shall befall you,
         Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
 11 For He shall give His angels charge over you,
         To keep you in all your ways.
 12 In their hands they shall bear you up,
         Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
 13 You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
         The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.
 14 “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
         I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
 15 He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
         I will be with him in trouble;
         I will deliver him and honor him.
 16 With long life I will satisfy him,
         And show him My salvation.”

Lord, every single good gift comes from You…  
(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/
422. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtL2GUE1RS4 The song, “When I look into Your holiness” was a blessing to me this morning
423. Thank You Lord for 30 rounds of radiation beginning today.  I will take it by faith that it is a good gift from You.
424. Psalm 91

I Surrender ALL


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Thanks for all your words of encouragement yesterday Cindy, Sharon, Jan, Tracey, and Kathy and everybody else who is so lovingly supporting me with your replies in the Pilgrim Pathway blog and by email and in person through this whole journey.  Thanks to everybody praying for me.  I can’t hardly express how much it means to me!  I don’t want to fall into discouragement but I do sometimes. I get so tired of all this.  What a YEAR 2011 has been.  This all started with a well woman check up and a mammogram on our 21st anniversary: December 30th 2010.  The honest truth is that I can really use lots and lots of cheering up, cheering on : words like , “You can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens you”, “Keep going, keep going–don’t give up, keep your eyes on Jesus” type messages these days.  I know the truth and try to walk in the truth, but it sure helps to hear encouragement from others when things are rough. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.I appreciate each one of you.
Kathy,so sorry to hear about your blood clot!  Will be praying. (Folks reading this–please do join me in in taking a minute right now to pray for others following the blog who also have cancer and serious health concerns; Kathy, Tracey, Kelley, Jackie, Michelle, and others.  If you are interested in the diologue/sharing your specific prayer requests/leaving me notes–see comments/replies on the Pilgrim’s Pathway web site after my posts.http://jpoliver.com/wordpress/  I am so grateful for people writing me there! )
To answer your question Kathy, the way the neurological effects from the chemo hit me was twitching in both my eyes (especially my left eye–as in every 5 minutes sometimes), I had some intermittent involuntary drooling–escape of saliva out of the corner of my mouth–(yikes on that one!), my eyelids felt heavy and slightly delayed when opening, my thought processing/ability to get words out at times was affected at times (they call it “chemo brain”), something weird happened to a dental nerve,(looked like I might need a root canal–still bothering me some but has settled down a lot),  there was mild tingling and numbness on the tip of  my tongue and around my mouth.  Those things have pretty much resolved–PRAISE THE LORD!  What has continued is the ongoing numbness and intermittent pain in my fingers, hands, toes, and feet.  It feels like I am always walking on a bunch of sand in my socks and I have some cramping and burning sensations in them sometimes.The numbness in the toes  is constant and it comes and goes in my fingers.Sometimes when I hold the phone, my hand feels like it’s asleep, like when you find that you’ve accidently fallen asleep with your hand under your body and feels like you are a stroke victim a short time til circulation resumes)  I am reading/hearing about people with severe neuropathy who can’t button their buttons or sign their name, they fall a lot and feel like their extremities are on fire.  I am very, very grateful not to be going through those things, hope never to experience that,  and believe it was a wise decision for me personally to stop Carboplatin and Doxetocin (the two chemo drugs) at dose 5 instead of 6 because of the increasing side effects.  The effects are cumulative and new signs of the damage can pop out even after the drug has already stopped, like the intermittent pain in my fingers and toes which has gotten worse in my toes, well after the drugs  stopped.  My joints have sure felt the impact of the medication too.  The hope of course is that this nasty stuff is poisoning those cancer cells into oblivion without knocking off the person taking them!
My heart cries out “Lord, I am defenseless without YOU!  I can not protect myself from the side effects of the treatment. I can’t make bad things not happen and I can’t make the good things happen either.  I can’t “make” nutrition or the medication or surgery or radiation “work”.  I can not make the cancer stop growing.  This type of deadly cancer could take over and kill me unless YOU stop it.  You are bigger than ANYTHING and nothing is too hard for YOU.  I can’t take off the invisible tourniquet sensation on my arm.The doctors can’t either.  They are doing their best.  Me too.   I did not even want to fight this battle this way.I have been the Miss non toxic, natural woman  trying to prevent this from ever happening for years with a vegan diet and a healthy lifestyle but it happened anyway, whatdayaknow.  To the best of my understanding  I am following how You are leading every step of the way.  I hate this plan I am on,  but who am I to hate what You have led me to? Only You can protect and heal me and I am counting on You to do what is best.  I’d sure love for You to COMPLETELY remove this whole, humongous mountain and throw it into some ocean somewhere (except that it’ll mess up the fish and environment with all this toxic watedump and radiation inside me. 😉 Can You please heal me, Father?  Please?  Please in the name of Jesus?  You say Your kids “have not because they ask not”.  I’m asking.  My family and friends and people I don’t even know are asking.  Father, You don’t “need” me to go for 30 radiation treatments to kill off cancer cells.  How come You want me to do that awful thing I’m starting tomorrow?  I pleaded with You for YOU to do the surgery and for You to remove every last cancer cell out of my body but You didn’t.  If you had done it, I could still have a left breast and an arm that wasn’t squeezing me all the time and good health.  I wouldn’t have gotten my neurological system damaged.  How does this work, Father? You must have bigger things than my health in mind.  I let go of what I think is best.  I want to trust You.  Help me to trust You.  I do trust You but this stuff is a bummer and I hate it, hate it, hate it.  I’m like Peter hollering up to You right now, “Help Jesus!  Help!  The waves are crashing over me and I’m drowning!  I want to walk on water, I want to follow You where ever You lead!  Please give me courage!  Please help me because this cancer world is a very scary place. Please rescue me Jesus–please hold me tight and never let go!”
 Sooooooooo many people think they have the answer for me: “Buy this supplement”, “Try this program, it’s God’s way and it works”, “If you had more faith, you’d be healed–do you have sin in your life?”, “They are curing cancer in Mexico”, “Satan caused the cancer, you have to take authority”, “Have you tried a faith healer?” etc, etc, etc.  YOU ARE MY DELIVERER.  My eyes are on YOU LORD.  YOU show me what to do and not do.  You take me Home to Heaven at just the right time.  YOU guide me in what YOU want me doing, make me sweet for You Lord, I want to give YOU great pleasure, I want to make You smile.  Help me share with others how great You are no matter what trials a person goes through–Your grace is sufficient–YOU YOURSELF are MORE than enough. I totally surrender what I think is best and lift up every breath left YOU want me to breathe on this earth.  You are in complete charge. You have my complete attention and I am listening to You Father.  Please help me to HEAR YOU.
Lord, every single good gift comes from You…  
(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/
420.  I surrender ALL.
421. I am grateful to be His little lamb and snuggling up in the arms of my loving Shepherd

Radiation Starts Monday

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Prank: “Baby” at Walmart
I like this quote by Roy Lessin about faith:

“What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see. So, you see, it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to Him must believe that there is a God and that He rewards those who sincerely seek Him. Hebrews 11:1, 6 (NLT)

Your faith in God today is your lifeline to His heartbeat. Faith is the hand that reaches up and takes hold of God’s promises and gathers in the spiritual treasures that are found in Christ. Faith sees the sunshine of God’s face, even when there are dark clouds all around.

When the things that you are experiencing don’t make sense, faith says, “God knows what He is doing.”
When your resources don’t match your need, faith says, “God is my provider.”
When you are fearful to take the next step, faith says, “God will not fail me.”
When you’re not sure what to do next, faith says, “God will guide me.”
When you are in a situation that seems impossible, faith says, “Nothing is too hard for the Lord.”

What things are possible for you today through faith? All things are possible, because your faith is in the God who knows no impossibilities.”


Welp, Monday, November 7th starts my first radiation treatment.  The plans right now are for me to have that done at 8:30 AM, Monday through Friday for a total of 30 times.  Honestly, my chest is a rather sad sight to my eyes.  Half of it looks like a huge, flat map in blue marker with lots of long lines and “X”s marking plans to shoot radiation through different spots, across my chest and extending to under my arm. An incision lies where my left breast once was. I sure do miss my breast.   More than that though I miss my 11 lymph nodes, undisrupted nerves, my once pain-free left arm, and  past excellent health. I am thankful that the 3 permanent tattoos are just teeny tiny dots, and the extensive blue markings are temporary.  It would be a lot to handle if it were opposite. There are a bunch of transparent waterproof stickers with small letters and numbers on those lines.  I tried reading the lettering this morning with a magnifying glass but it’s all upside down and sideways and my eyes brain doesn’t work well that way. I’ll ask John to let me know what the writing says just out of curiosity since I’m wearing it.

I know that I can get reconstruction if I like one day and the results can be very good. Many women have reconstructive surgery done right at the time of their mastectomies or later.  In my case it was not in my best interest to do reconstruction until after radiation even if I wanted it.  I possibly may change my mind in the future, but truthfully as of right now, a breast prosthesis sure beats more surgery, more pain, and more risk.  My dear husband is wonderful and supportive and loving through all of this.  I am so thankful for John. 

Lord, every single good gift comes from You…  
(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/

414. I’m grateful that I can get radiation out of the way early each day, it’s only 10 minutes up the road instead of an hour away like the IV infusions at the oncologist’s, and it’s a quick, in-and-out type thing. Please make it effective, Lord!

415. My “faith in God today is my lifeline to His heartbeat. Faith is the hand that reaches up and takes hold of God’s promises and gathers in the spiritual treasures that are found in Christ. Faith sees the sunshine of God’s face, even when there are dark clouds all around.” (Roy Lessin)

416.  Everything I am going through here on earth is only temporary…being with God in Heaven is forever.

417.  Hannah got to go to the Renaissance Fair with a friend yesterday and had a great time

418.   Joy and Nicholas’ marked improvements in their speeches in Debate Club last night

419. The radiation prep doodles reminding me of the chuckle I got from this cartoon years ago : http://www.flickr.com/photos/gluv/298864264/

Love yas,

God’s beloved bald-headed Paula who is thankful to be growing some peach fuzz.  My hair is sparce and you still can see through my whole scalp but there is some lengthening evidence of things to come. :0)

Hebrews 11

New King James Version (NKJV)

By Faith We Understand

 1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 2 For by it the elders obtained a good testimony.
3 By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.

Faith at the Dawn of History

4 By faith Abel offered to God a more excellent sacrifice than Cain, through which he obtained witness that he was righteous, God testifying of his gifts; and through it he being dead still speaks.
5 By faith Enoch was taken away so that he did not see death, “and was not found, because God had taken him”;[a] for before he was taken he had this testimony, that he pleased God. 6 But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
7 By faith Noah, being divinely warned of things not yet seen, moved with godly fear, prepared an ark for the saving of his household, by which he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness which is according to faith.

Faithful Abraham

8 By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to the place which he would receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going. 9 By faith he dwelt in the land of promise as in a foreign country, dwelling in tents with Isaac and Jacob, the heirs with him of the same promise; 10 for he waited for the city which has foundations, whose builder and maker is God.
11 By faith Sarah herself also received strength to conceive seed, and she bore a child[b] when she was past the age, because she judged Him faithful who had promised. 12 Therefore from one man, and him as good as dead, were born as many as the stars of the sky in multitude—innumerable as the sand which is by the seashore.

The Heavenly Hope

13 These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them,[c] embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. 14 For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland. 15 And truly if they had called to mind that country from which they had come out, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them.

The Faith of the Patriarchs

17 By faith Abraham, when he was tested, offered up Isaac, and he who had received the promises offered up his only begotten son, 18 of whom it was said, “In Isaac your seed shall be called,”[d] 19 concluding that God was able to raise him up, even from the dead, from which he also received him in a figurative sense.
20 By faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau concerning things to come.
21 By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of the sons of Joseph, and worshiped, leaning on the top of his staff.
22 By faith Joseph, when he was dying, made mention of the departure of the children of Israel, and gave instructions concerning his bones.

The Faith of Moses

23 By faith Moses, when he was born, was hidden three months by his parents, because they saw he was a beautiful child; and they were not afraid of the king’s command.
24 By faith Moses, when he became of age, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter, 25 choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God than to enjoy the passing pleasures of sin, 26 esteeming the reproach of Christ greater riches than the treasures in[e] Egypt; for he looked to the reward.
27 By faith he forsook Egypt, not fearing the wrath of the king; for he endured as seeing Him who is invisible. 28 By faith he kept the Passover and the sprinkling of blood, lest he who destroyed the firstborn should touch them.
29 By faith they passed through the Red Sea as by dry land, whereas the Egyptians, attempting to do so, were drowned.

By Faith They Overcame

30 By faith the walls of Jericho fell down after they were encircled for seven days. 31 By faith the harlot Rahab did not perish with those who did not believe, when she had received the spies with peace.
32 And what more shall I say? For the time would fail me to tell of Gideon and Barak and Samson and Jephthah, also of David and Samuel and the prophets: 33 who through faith subdued kingdoms, worked righteousness, obtained promises, stopped the mouths of lions, 34 quenched the violence of fire, escaped the edge of the sword, out of weakness were made strong, became valiant in battle, turned to flight the armies of the aliens. 35 Women received their dead raised to life again.
Others were tortured, not accepting deliverance, that they might obtain a better resurrection. 36 Still others had trial of mockings and scourgings, yes, and of chains and imprisonment. 37 They were stoned, they were sawn in two, were tempted,[f] were slain with the sword. They wandered about in sheepskins and goatskins, being destitute, afflicted, tormented— 38 of whom the world was not worthy. They wandered in deserts and mountains, in dens and caves of the earth.
39 And all these, having obtained a good testimony through faith, did not receive the promise, 40 God having provided something better for us, that they should not be made perfect apart from us.


Gotta Say “Goodbye” to Umbraging and Such


‘”The man who is challenged by Fate does not take umbrage at the terms,’ wrote Dag Hammarskjold. So the man called by Christ. Any terms at all are acceptable if we may be permitted to walk with Him.

“But is this the path, Lord? Must we take this one in order to reach Home?”

“Trust Me.”

“…Did you not tell Me you’d go with Me all the way?”

“Yes, Lord. And I meant it…I just didn’t know it would mean this.

“I am not taken by surprise, child. This is precisely My best for you, though you cannot understand it now. Trust Me, and keep following.”

“In Your strength I will, Father…all the way.”

When the way to the house of the Lord leads through the “Valley of the Shadow,” we accept those terms, too. If we suffer loss, scorn, misunderstanding, false accusation, or any other form of trouble, it is what we agreed on to begin with. Compared with the rewards promised, it is nothing; so let us not take umbrage. Let us be quite clear and matter-of-fact about it: “In the world you have tribulation; but be of good cheer [cheer up!] I have overcome the world” (Jn 16:33).
~All the above is a direct quote byElisabeth Elliot in “A Lamp For My Feet”


Umbrage” was not in my vocabulary so I looked it up:


 /ˈʌmbrɪdʒ/ Show Spelled[uhm-brij] Show IPA



offense; annoyance; displeasure: to feel umbrage at a social snub; to give umbrage to someone; to take umbrage at someone’s rudeness.

the slightest indication or vaguest feeling of suspicion, doubt, hostility, or the like.

leaves that afford shade, as the foliage of trees.

shade or shadows, as cast by trees.

a shadowy appearance or semblance of something.
Lord, every single good gift comes from You…  
(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/
411. In Your strength, I will follow, All the way. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ekUELQCnQlM
412.  I will use my new “word for the day” and personalize it along with Elizabeth Elliot and Doug Hammarskjold. “The woman who is challenged by the tough things God allows in life like cancer does not take umbrage at the terms.  Compared to the rewards promised for following Him, these trials ae nothing.  Any terms at all are acceptable if we may be permitted to walk with Him, even through the Valley of the Shadow of Death.”  Pleae help me to APPLY this word to my thoughts and actions, Lord.  ONLY in You is it possible not to take umbrage at all this.
213″In the world I do have and will  have tribulation; but I choose to  be of good cheer [cheer up, Paula Girl!] Jesus has overcome the world” (Jn 16:33).

All the way my Savior leads me,
What have I to ask beside?
Can I doubt His tender mercy,
Who through life has been my Guide?
Heav’nly peace, divinest comfort,
Here by faith in Him to dwell!
For I know, whate’er befall me,
Jesus doeth all things well;
For I know, whate’er befall me,
Jesus doeth all things well.

All the way my Savior leads me,
Cheers each winding path I tread,
Gives me grace for every trial,
Feeds me with the living Bread.
Though my weary steps may falter
And my soul athirst may be,
Gushing from the Rock before me,
Lo! A spring of joy I see;
Gushing from the Rock before me,
Lo! A spring of joy I see.

All the way my Savior leads me,
Oh, the fullness of His love!
Perfect rest to me is promised
In my Father’s house above.
When my spirit, clothed immortal,
Wings its flight to realms of day
This my song through endless ages:
Jesus led me all the way;
This my song through endless ages:
Jesus led me all the way.
~Fanny Crosby



“Some of God’s Greatest Mercies are His Refusals…”


“Tell the negative committee that meets in your head
to sit down and shut up ” and listen to God instead.

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Think through me, Thoughts of God,
My Father, quiet me,
Till in Thy holy presence, hushed,
I think Thy thoughts with Thee.

Think through me, Thoughts of God,
That always, everywhere,
The stream that through my being flows,
May homeward pass in prayer.

Think through me, Thoughts of God,
And let my own thoughts be
Lost like sand-pools on the shore
Of the eternal sea.

– Amy Carmichael, Toward Jerusalem


I’ve been thinking about that story I quoted yesterday, Two Quarters and a Lesson.  If I had been the parent in that situation  I would not have given it a second thought but would have whipped out two more quarters for the child missing out on the fun.  Of course there is a place for that: the Dad’s original intent had been for both of his children to enjoy the fun of petting the animals…and yet, his choice of keeping the quarters in his pocket in that instance allowed the much deeper blessing of his daughter experiencing sacrificial love and giving.  That story was a reminder to me that God has something much bigger and better for me in this trial than my comfort, health, and circumstantial happiness.  In His economy, His desire for me is that I get “His whole treasure” intended for me, not just the two measly quarters of what I think is what is best.
Praise You in This Storm by Casting Crowns
I was sure by now, God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it’s still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
And I’ll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I’ve cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can’t find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away


I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and

Lord, every single good gift comes from You…  
(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/
403. Music that blessed me this morning:
404.”Learning to pray is learning to trust the wisdom, the power, and the love of our Heavenly Father, always so far beyond our dreams. He knows our need and knows ways to meet it that have never entered our heads. Things we feel sure we need for happiness may often lead to our ruin. Things we think will ruin us — if we believe what the Father tells us and surrender ourselves into His strong arms, bring us deliverance and joy.” ~Elisabeth Elliot
405. I will “tell the negative committee that meets in my head to sit down and shut up” and listen to God instead.
406. NTM HQ Staff Appreciation Dinner last night: fun time, privilege to have served Him in this ministry for the last 20 years
407. Protection of Landy, Kelley, and kids in kitchen fire yesterday
408.”And I’ll praise you in this storm and I will lift my hands for You are who You are no matter where I am,  and every tear I’ve cried You hold in your hand , You never left my side and though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm” (Casting Crowns)
409. I will “Never forget that some of God’s greatest mercies are His refusals. He says “no” in order that He may, in ways we cannot imagine, say “yes.”All His ways with us are merciful. His meaning is always love.” (Elisabeth Elliot)
410. Lamentations 3:21-26

 Yet I still dare to hope
      when I remember this:

 The faithful love of the Lord never ends!

      His mercies never cease.
  Great is his faithfulness;
      his mercies begin afresh each morning.
  I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance;
      therefore, I will hope in him!”

  The Lord is good to those who depend on him,
      to those who search for him.
  So it is good to wait quietly
      for salvation from the Lord.

Two Quarters and a Lesson


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Two quarters and a lesson

The below is a direct quote taken from http://justwateringcamels.blogspot.com/2009/01/two-quarters-and-lesson.html 

“On Sunday, our pastor told a very thought provoking story and a few days later I came across a very powerful and unique verse in Matthew 16:23 that seemed to tie right into the story.
The true story goes like this….One day a father took his two children out shopping with him. When they got to the store he noticed they had a petting zoo set up for the children. He dug two quarters out of his pockets and handed one to his son and daughter and told them to go into the zoo while he shopped right outside. Seconds after leaving them at the entrance, he noticed his young daughter trailing behind him. He turned to her and asked why she was not at the zoo, petting the animals with her brother. She looked at him and replied the tickets to get in cost 50 cents so she had given her brother her quarter. This touched the father deeply because he knew how much his daughter loved animals and because of that love, he understood the extent of her sacrifice. He walked back with her to the gate and they stood together watching the son play, pet, and romp with the miniature animals. As he stood there, he reached into his pocket and fumbled with the remaining quarters still in his possession. The quarters, sufficient to buy his daughter her own ticket, seemed to be burning holes in his pocket, but what he did next is not what you would think…..for the father remained where he stood, never taking the quarters out, never offering to buy his daughter her own ticket. He not only was a loving father, but he was also a wise man and he wanted to allow his daughter to experience the joy and the reward of her sacrifice of love. Had he given in to the powerful desire to buy the second ticket, he realized he would have cheapened the value and the price of her precious sacrifice.

As I sat in the pew and listened to the story, a host of emotions flooded my heart. I imagined myself in his shoes with one of my precious children beside me, for whom I would give my very life. A battle began to rage and I experienced a conflict in my soul because, although the wisdom of his decision rang true in my heart, the desire to give “good” to a child who truly deserved a reward would have been hard not to pacify. As I sat there I wondered, would I have made the same choice? I can honestly say, I think I would have given the quarters, and while that may not have been a wrong decision, perhaps in giving the quarters the child would have received the lesser and least valuable of the rewards.

I think most of us can say we have been on both the receiving and giving end of “withheld good” As a parent, I find I am faced with this decision almost every day. An incident happened this week in which one of my kids misbehaved in Sunday school and then throughout the week demonstrated willful disobedience and disrespect towards me. The kids had been invited to a special breakfast on Saturday with their Sunday school class and my husband and I decided we would not allow the offending child to attend with their sibling. Wow, was it hard dropping just the one child off and leaving behind my chance to get out by myself. It was even harder looking into the eyes of my child as we drove away while she sobbed asking to be able to go. I wanted to turn around, but I realized if I gave in and let her go, the lesson would not be learned and the transgressions would be repeated and left to be dealt with another day. Although my child was very repentant and show genuine remorse, my spirit and my husband counseled me to stick to my guns by withholding the “good” because I loved my child and wanted her to learn a very valuable lesson.

In Matthew 16:23 Jesus said “…..get thee behind me, Satan: thou art an offense unto me: for thou savoriest not the things that be of God, but those that be of man.”
These were pretty harsh words for Peter after he “rebuked” Jesus for forecasting his death. While Peter was right to be repulsed by the idea of His Lords murder, had his spiritual eyes been open and had he been able to comprehend the eternal ramifications of the willing sacrifice Jesus was about to make, I believe he would have closed his mouth and instead fallen to his knees humbly weeping at the feet of his master as Mary had done days before.

Have you ever found yourself in the shoes of the father, equipped with the ability, and/or power, and strong desire to give? Have you ever had the opportunity to “give” or “do” good but had the spirit prompt you respond with a second choice, the better choice, to “withhold good”?

Have you ever found yourself in the shoes of the girl, faithful and obediently following Christ, yet having a desire, need, or request withheld? Has the anguish of your heart ever been met with the still small voice of the Lord saying “Not now”, “Endure for a while”, or “Trust me”? I know people enduring through unbelievably painful trials in their marriage, work, and life. Their desire is pure and they have faithfully served him and what makes it tough is that they know the Lord could simply utter the words and make it all go away, bringing healing, peace, or restoration. Yet for some reason, in his infinite wisdom and love he withholds the “good” and instead gives just enough strength and grace to endure.

There is a woman I barely know, whom I have never met personally, yet her life, struggles, and testimony has greatly impacted my life and walk with the Lord. I think of her daily and pray for her, that the Lord would reward her faithfulness, her long suffering, and her commitment to the truth no matter the cost, by bringing her out of her present fire and into the wealthy place place he promises awaits her an the end. At the same time, I wonder at the eternal impact her life, struggles, and story has made upon countless women all across the country. Her spiritual growth and maturity, and the wealth of knowledge and insight she is able to share, is priceless. I look at her life and I am reminded and admonished to not doubt when the Lord chooses to withhold the “good” so he can eventually give me something far greater that that which my soul longs for.

My life verse is Psalm 84:11-12
The Lord your God is a sun and and shield
The Lord will give grace and mercy,
No good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly,
O Lord of Host, Blessed is the man that trusteth thee.

He can pour out blessings and goodness like the sun pours down it’s rays, but he can also withhold and in withholding shield and protect us from not just evil but also second best. No matter his decision we know it is made with Love and mercy and it is accompanied with grace to endure.

Psalm 66:12
Thou hast caused men to ride over our heads
We went through fire and through water,
But thou broughtest us out into a wealthy place.

If you are going through a trial where you are simply waiting for an answer He is there. If you find yourself painfully thrust into the refiners fire over and over again as you pray for an end to the hurt, He is there. If you find yourself in a vast and lonely ocean, fighting waves of despair and hopelessness, as you use all your strength just to keep your head above the water, no matter the trial no matter the pain, our Saviour is still there. He stands quietly with us feeling our present pain, understanding our present yearning, and our seeing our present need and he stands there with two quarters is his pocket. As our Lord passes with us through the fire and water, remember he also stands there with us in our future deliverance, our future healing, and our future blessing, and knowing all and seeing all, his hand remains where it rest and he lovingly and with omniscience withholds the “good” so that he can eventually give us of his best.

He who withheld not the most precious gift he possessed, his only and beloved son, will not withhold anything of lesser value. Why settle for just quarters when we can own the entire bank!

Are you willing to let go of the quarters and allow him to give you of his best, when and where he deems it best? “

Lord, every single good gift comes from You…  
(From James 1:7)   One Thousand Gifts   http://www.aholyexperience.com/
398. “When I am going through a trial where I am simply waiting for an answer, He is there. If I find myself painfully thrust into the refiners fire over and over again as I pray for an end to the hurt, He is there. If I find myself in a vast and lonely ocean, fighting waves of despair and hopelessness, as I use all my strength just to keep my head above the water, no matter the trial, no matter the pain, my Saviour is still there. He stands quietly with me feeling my present pain, understanding my present yearning, and seeing my present need and he stands there with two quarters is his pocket. As our Lord passes with me through the fire and water, I remember he also stands there with me in my future deliverance, my future healing, and my future blessing, and knowing all and seeing all, his hand remains where it rest and he lovingly and with omniscience withholds the “good” so that he can eventually give me of his best.”
(Putting quote by Jody in the first person as a good gift from God to me today  http://justwateringcamels.blogspot.com/2009/01/two-quarters-and-lesson.html )

399. Delicious surprise dinner from K.H. waiting for us last night after we were gone all day. What a blessing!

400. I praise God for every uneventful, smooth IV infusion of Herceptin.  Father, please make it put every last cancer cell to sleep with that drug and protect my heart functioning and the rest of me while it is doing it’s work
401. One of my favorite nurses, Kelley, taking care of me yesterday
402. “Jesus knows me, this I love.” (Dawn telling me about the sign in her home–love it!)