God is in Control

God is in control.
I will choose to trust Him, moment by moment and day by day.  He is delivering me from all my fears. He is meeting all of my needs in the way only He can.  HE is what life is all about.
I will wait on Him and be of good courage.  He will keep strengthening my heart,  just as He is now.
I will bless Him continually with my mouth, my heart, my soul, my mind.  I will sing praise to the One Who is worthy of all praise.
 

Psalm 31:14-15a
 14 But as for me, I trust in You, O LORD;
         I say, “You are my God.”
 15 My times are in Your hand….”

 
Paula
 
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Psalm 27:13-14
 13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
         That I would see the goodness of the LORD
         In the land of the living.
         
 14 Wait on the LORD;
         Be of good courage,
         And He shall strengthen your heart;
         Wait, I say, on the LORD!

 

Revelation 21:4

He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.

 

Psalm 34

 1 I will bless the LORD at all times;
         His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
 2 My soul shall make its boast in the LORD;
         The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
 3 Oh, magnify the LORD with me,
         And let us exalt His name together.
         
 4 I sought the LORD, and He heard me,
         And delivered me from all my fears.
 5 They looked to Him and were radiant,
         And their faces were not ashamed.
 6 This poor man cried out, and the LORD heard him,
         And saved him out of all his troubles.
 7 The angel[a] of the LORD encamps all around those who fear Him,
         And delivers them. 
       
 8 Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good;
         Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
 9 Oh, fear the LORD, you His saints!
         There is no want to those who fear Him.
 10 The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
         But those who seek the LORD shall not lack any good thing.

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“Jesus will meet you there”
(Written and sung by Steven Curtis Chapman after the death of his young daughter)
 
 
When you think you’ve hit the bottom
and the bottom gives way
and you fall into a darkness
no words can explain
and you don’t know how you make it out alive
Jesus will meet you there.

When the doctor says, “I’m sorry,
we don’t know what else to do.”
and you’re looking at your family
wondering how they’ll make it through…
Whatever road this life takes you down,
Jesus will meet you there.

He knows the way to wherever you are
He knows the way to the depths of your heart
He knows the way cuz he’s already been
where you’re going
Jesus will meet you there.

When the jury says, “Guilty,”
and the prison doors close
When the one you love says nothing,
just packs up and goes
When the sunlight comes and your world’s still dark,
Jesus will meet you there.

When you’ve failed again and all your
second chances have been used
And the heavy weight of guilt and shame
is crushing down on you…
And all you have is one last cry for help

Jesus will meet you there.

He knows the way to wherever you are
He knows the way to the depths of your heart
He knows the way cuz he’s already been
where you’re going

When you realize the dreams you’ve had
for your child won’t come true
when the phone rings in the middle
of the night with tragic news…
Whatever valley you must walk through,
Jesus will meet you there.

He will meet you there.

Jesus will meet you there…

 
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“Our God is in Control”
Steven Curtis Chapman
 
 
This is not how it should be
This is not how it could be
This is how it is
And our God is in control

This is not how it will be
When we finally will see
We’ll see with our own eyes
He was always in control

And we’ll sing holy, holy, holy is our God
And we will finally really understand what it means
So we’ll sing holy, holy, holy is our God
While we’re waiting for that day

This is not where we planned to be
When we started this journey
But this is where we are
And our God is in control

Though this first taste is bitter
There will be sweetness forever
When we finally taste and see
That our God is in control

And we’ll sing holy, holy, holy is our God
And we will finally really understand what it means
So we’ll sing holy, holy, holy is our God
While we’re waiting for that day

 
We’re waiting for that day
We’ll keep on waiting for that day
And we will rise
Our God is in control

(Holy, holy, holy) x2

Our God is in control

(Holy, holy, holy)

 
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Psalm 30:11-12
 11 You have turned for me my mourning into dancing;
         You have put off my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness,
 12 To the end that my glory may sing praise to You and not be silent.
         O LORD my God, I will give thanks to You forever.

 
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Specific prayer requests/devotional on pain

Dear friends,

I would appreciate specific prayer for some physical concerns hitting me this morning (normal chemo side effects): increasing nausea (took medication at 6 AM: 8 hrs til next dose if needed), headache, fatique, feel sick, and the ongoing mostly constant pain in the left arm which had the lymph node removal.  That pain is very wearing and affects my sleep.  I have plans to get help to address the cause and treatment of the pain next week.  Thanks for praying.  I am grateful.

My sister Kathy sent me this Chuck Swindoll devotion.  It was a blessing to me and I hope it is to you, too:

“Life and pain are synonymous.   You cannot have one without the other.  Pain is a fact of life in this fallen world, and we cannot escape it.  In fact, the goal in life is not to get away from the pain of it, but to endure through it, in fact, to triumph over it, while learning the lessons only pain can teach us.   As someone put it, “Pain is inevitable.  Misery is optional.”   Since we cannot get free of pain, the secret of successful living is finding ways to live above the level of misery.   Indeed,  we must.    My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart.”   PSA 73:26

Hanging tight onto Jesus,

Paula

God is always up to something good. ALWAYS!

Psalm 62:8
 8 O my people, trust in him at all times.
      Pour out your heart to him,
      for God is our refuge.

Personalizing for me:
 
I will trust You at all times, Father… ALL TIMES.
I will keep my eyes on YOU, not on my circumstances or emotions.
I pour my whole heart out to you. I am not my own: I belong to You and I am so very glad that this is true.
You indeed are my refuge. I run to You for safety, for comfort, for Your loving Arms to hold me close, just to be with You. I cling to You and Your Word.  I will choose to stand on Your promises that never fail.  It is a settled matter: Your ways are perfect always.  Your way, not mine. 
 
Psalm 56:8
You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle.You have recorded each one in your book.

 

 

Personalizing it for me:
Lord, not one of my sorrows or joys pass by without Your notice.  You do see and care about all I am going through and all of my hope is in You.  You’ve collected all my tears in a bottle and written down all my sorrows in a book. I don’t understand all this tough stuff that is going on in my life really, and I guess I wont fully understand and don’t have to, but somehow it must be Your best plan to allow all this–for your glory and honor and my good and that of others too.  You have my full attention, Lord.  What do you want to teach me?  I am listening with my ears wide open and want You to mold and change me in all the ways You want to as You conform me in the image of Your Son.  Please help me to get every last thing out of these life lessons you are personally orchestrating, none of them wasted.  Not one. If it is possible, I’d like to “get it” as in all You want to teach me as quickly as possible without any stubborn hardness of heart or foolish wasting the precious time You give me.   I’d just as soon not  extend and repeat lessons unnecessarily-what a waste that would be.  I want to be soft and pliable in Your hands.   You have numbered my days and Heaven sure sounds extra good to me in so many ways right now. I do not want to cling to this old earth and this life but I do want You to show me how to fit in Your plans, bringing You honor, thanks, praise, and great pleasure every remaining day You have me here.  I want to live fully, like I am alive in You because of who I already am IN CHRIST and all I already possess IN CHRIST.  Teach me how to live my life in such a way that it is a sweet and lovely aroma to You. pleasing to You in every way–woa, I’m such a long ways from that goal.   I’ve still got lots and lots of  stinky ole’ “junk and garbage and stuff” left in my life I want you to pluck out and it looks like You’ve got a good hold and are using cancer to  tug on some twisted roots on these “weeds” in my life. Thank You for the cancer and the treatment, Lord.  I hate it but I thank You by faith.

Isaiah 55:8-9
 8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
   neither are your ways my ways,”
            declares the LORD.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
   so are my ways higher than your ways
   and my thoughts than your thoughts.

  
Our pastor shared this song on Sunday at church and it greatly blessed my soul:
 

Jesus, Lover Of My Soul (It’s All About You) lyrics

It’s all about You, Jesus
And all this is for You
For Your glory and your fame
It’s not about me
As if You should do things my way
You alone are God
And I surrender to your ways

Jesus, lover of my soul
All consuming fire is in Your gaze
Jesus, I want you to know
I will follow you all my days
For no one else in history is like you
And history itself belongs to you
Alpha and Omega, You have loved me
And I will share eternity with You 

 
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Yes, Lord!
This is all about YOU, Jesus.  It’s not about me.
 
Paula
P.S.  Thanks for praying.  There were a few challenging things but overall the first day of chemo went ok, PTL.

Plan C Begins Today: Please Pray.

First we sought and walked with our dear Lord through “Plan A” in battling the cancer within me: the nutritional and detoxification approach.  He led us there and ministered to us there and then guided and held us close to His heart through  “Plan B”, breast and lymph node removal and the continuing pain/recovery in my affected arm, and now today begins “Plan C” and beyond.  I have dreaded chemotherapy and radiation the most out of everything.
  
This morning once again, for the millionth time, along with every cell in my whole body and my very life,  I lay down every single prejudice and bias I have ever held against conventional cancer treatment.  I take these offered tools that my mind has resisted, fought, feared,  screamed, and kicked against  and place them before my precious Savior. Just as He did not “need” my best efforts to prevent or overcome cancer with nutrition if it were His will to implement them in my healing process, these medical interventions are for Him to use or not use as HE sees best and my job is to trust HIm, yield and surrender myself fully to Him, and leave all of the results to Him.  My HOPE is in YOU, LORD…in YOU alone. Along with the hope You offer, Your peace, comfort, joy, and strength are here for me to grab ahold of too and so I do right now. Lord, You do sometimes utilize the giftedness, skill, and help of oncologists, surgeons, radiologists, and other doctors along with the natural health minded folks–anything good they have to offer is ultimately from Your Hand.  YOU are my Father and my Great Physician.  I am so very thankful that I am Yours.

Romans 8:38-39

 

 38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

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Excerpts taken from “I Arise Today”

I arise today
Through God’s strength to pilot me:
God’s might to uphold me,
God’s wisdom to guide me,
God’s eye to look before me,
God’s ear to hear me,
God’s Word to speak for me,
God’s hand to guard me,
God’s way to lie before me,
God’s shield to protect me,

Christ with me, Christ before me, Christ behind me,
Christ in me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ on my right, Christ on my left,
Christ when I lie down, Christ when I sit down, Christ when I arise.

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It is Well With my Soul

http://www.cyberhymnal.org/htm/i/t/i/itiswell.htm

“This hymn was writ­ten af­ter two ma­jor trau­mas in Spaf­ford’s life. The first was the great Chi­ca­go Fire of Oc­to­ber 1871, which ru­ined him fi­nan­cial­ly (he had been a weal­thy bus­i­ness­man). Short­ly af­ter, while cross­ing the At­lan­tic, all four of Spaf­ford’s daugh­ters died in a col­li­sion with an­o­ther ship. Spaf­ford’s wife Anna sur­vived and sent him the now fa­mous tel­e­gram, “Saved alone.” Sev­er­al weeks lat­er, as Spaf­ford’s own ship passed near the spot where his daugh­ters died, the Ho­ly Spir­it in­spired these words. They speak to the eter­nal hope that all be­liev­ers have, no mat­ter what pain and grief be­fall them on earth.”


When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Refrain

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

Refrain

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

Refrain

For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.

Refrain

But, Lord, ‘tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh trump of the angel! Oh voice of the Lord!
Blessèd hope, blessèd rest of my soul!

Refrain

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

Refrain

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Snuggling up in His love and resting there,

Paula

Choosing to praise and thank God for a bald head

Matthew 10:30

New Living Translation (NLT)

30 And the very hairs on your head are all numbered.

I’ve been thinking about the hair loss that is around the bend for me and how God cares about that detail.  My hair has thinned out considerably over the years, perhaps because of hormonal changes or something and I don’t have a particularly beautiful head of hair like some women do but it is still mine and I’m attached. Like the multitude of other “natural, non toxic lifestyle” things that were integrated in my thinking over many years, it’s  ironic how I did not dye my hair despite the sprouts of grey and white coming in, in my attempt to avoid cancer.  When I am feeling cynical I jest how my cancer happened because of so many years of too many fruits and veggies along with  pizza and hotdog deprivation. 😉  God surely knows best in all that He allows despite our bast efforts to avoid certain things, like cancer.

 It’s sad really how we take for granted and  don’t fully appreciate simple gifts and blessings from God (like eyebrows and eyelashes than can also fall out with chemo) until they are gone.  Like my left breast and 11 lymph nodes that were removed–I hate to lose any of “my original body parts”  and I am not looking forward to parting with my hair and am placing that inevitable loss in His Hands now, before it happens.     During the Gerson Therapy I got a bunch of brand new hair growth as I flooded my body with good nutrition which was pretty cool but it is about to wave “Adios” with the chemo.   I am glad God put Matthew 10:30 in the Bible.  He knows the tiniest things about us that nobody else does.  If He knows when “Hair #1091” falls out in our brush this morning and when birds fall out of trees, He  knows everything about everything that concerns us as well.  He knows and He cares and He loves us with a lavish love.

Tonight I am being blessed with a “Hat Party'” and I am very much looking forward to a lovely, encouraging time.  Here is the sweet invitation a friend sent out:

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Attention Ladies:

You are cordially invited to a HAT SHARING PARTY this coming Tuesday evening, June 14th from 7 to 9 pm, to encourage Paula Oliver’s heart before her Chemo treatment begins on Thursday, the 16th.

There are 5 special ways that you can choose from to encourage Paula’s heart at our Hat Sharing get-together:

1)       Share a favorite or funny hat/scarf/cap/turban by wearing it for us. Laughter is the best medicine. J

2)      Share a (new or used) hat/scarf/cap/turban with Paula as a gift. They must be soft and comfortable to wear later on in her treatment.

3)      Share verbally and/or in writing on a 3×5 card, a difficult time or experience you went through and how our amazing God encouraged your heart and saw you through. Especially write out any Scripture verses that He used at that time to encourage you or that encourage you period.

4)     Share a snack or treat that you brought for us to enjoy together.  

5)      Share yourself with Paula this evening just by being here.   

This is to be a sweet and casual affair, just to encourage her and have fun and most of all, to leave the fragrance of Christ with our joy and love and laughter. So just come as you are and share what you can.

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Thank YOU Father,  for the blessing of friends!!!!!

  

Thank YOU Father,  both for the hair that is on my head today and for my head that will be  bald soon but covered with a pretty hat –an expression of love and care.  🙂

A friend shared this beautiful song with me:
 
This is a hymn I sang this morning:

Day by day, and with each passing moment,
Strength I find, to meet my trials here;
Trusting in my Father’s wise bestowment,
I’ve no cause for worry or for fear.
He Whose heart is kind beyond all measure
Gives unto each day what He deems best—
Lovingly, its part of pain and pleasure,
Mingling toil with peace and rest.

Every day, the Lord Himself is near me
With a special mercy for each hour;
All my cares He fain would bear, and cheer me,
He Whose Name is Counselor and Power;
The protection of His child and treasure
Is a charge that on Himself He laid;
“As thy days, thy strength shall be in measure,”
This the pledge to me He made.

Help me then in every tribulation
So to trust Thy promises, O Lord,
That I lose not faith’s sweet consolation
Offered me within Thy holy Word.
Help me, Lord, when toil and trouble meeting,
Ever to take, as from a father’s hand,
One by one, the days, the moments fleeting,
Till I reach the promised land.

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Gratefully HIs,

Paula

Testing by Fire

“When God permits His children to go through the furnace, He keeps His eye on the clock and His hand on the thermostat.  His loving heart knows how much and how long.”

–Warren Wiersbe

1 Peter 1:6-7A

New Living Translation (NLT)

 6 So be truly glad.[a] There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. 7 These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold….

“This Thing is From Me.”

“Life’s disappointments are veiled love’s appointments.

My child, I have a message for you today; let me whisper it in your ear, that it may gild with glory any storm clouds that arise.

It is short – only five words, but let them sink into your inmost soul, use them as a pillow on which to rest your weary head:

“THIS THING IS FROM ME”

Have you ever thought that all that concerns you, concerns Me too? For “he that toucheth you, toucheth the apple of Mine eye” (Zechariah 2:8).

I would have you learn when temptations assail you, and the “enemy comes in like a flood,” that this thing is from Me, that your weakness needs My might, and your safety lies in letting Me fight for you.

Are you in difficult circumstances? This thing is from Me. I am the God of circumstances. Your surroundings and companions are only working out My will.

Are you in money difficulties? Is it hard to make both ends meet? This thing is from Me, for I am your purse bearer, and I would have you draw from and depend upon Me. My supplies are limitless (see Philippians 4:19). I would have you prove My promises.

Are you passing through a night of sorrow? This thing is from Me. I am “The Man of sorrows and acquainted with grief.” I have let earthly comforters fail you so that by turning to Me you may obtain everlasting consolation (see II Thessalonians 2:16, 17).

Has some friend disappointed you? One to whom you opened your heart? This thing is from Me. I have allowed this disappointment to come so that you may learn that I am your best friend.

Have your plans been all upset? Are you bowed down and weary? This thing is from Me. You made your plans, then came asking Me to bless them, but I would have you let Me plan for you and then I take the responsibility, for “this thing is too heavy for thee; thou art not able to perform it thyself alone” (Exodus 18:18). You are only an instrument.

Have you longed to do some great work for Me, and instead been laid aside on a bed of pain and weakness? This thing is from Me. I could not get your attention in your busy days, and I want to teach you some of My deepest lessons. “They also serve who only stand and wait.”

Some of My greatest workers are those shut out from active service, that they may learn to wield the weapon of all-prayer.

Are you suddenly called to occupy a difficult and responsible position? Launch out on Me. I am trusting you with the “possession of difficulties,” and for “this thing the Lord thy God shall bless thee in all thy works, and in all that thou puttest thine hand unto” (Deuteronomy 15:10).

This day I place in your hand this pot of holy oil; make use of it freely, My child. Remember, “interruptions are divine instructions.” The sting will go as you learn to see Me in all things; therefore, “set your hearts unto all the words which I testify among you this day … for it is not a vain thing for you; because it is your life: and through this thing ye shall prolong your days in the land” (Deuteronomy 32:46, 47).”

–Laura A. Barton Snow

Quote by Elizabeth Elliot

“If we had the least notion of God’s lovingkindness and tender mercy,
His fatherly care for His poor children, His generousity, His beautiful
plans for us; if we knew how patiently He waits for our turning to Him,
how gently He means to lead us to green pastures and still waters, how
carefully He is preparing a place for us, how ceaselessly He is ordering
and ordaining and engineering His Master Plan for our good-if we had any
inkling of all this, could we be reluctant to let go of our smashed
dandelions or whatever we clutch so fiercely in our sweaty little hands?…
If with courage and joy we pour ourselves out for Him and for others for
His sake, it is not possible to lose, in any final sense, anything
worth keeping.  We will lose ourselves and our selfishness.  We will
gain everything worth having.”

–Ekizabeth Elliot

Contentment

"I am strong for all things in the One Who continually infuses strength in me" Phil 4:13 
"At ALL times and in ALL circumstances, Christ is able and willing to provide the strength
 we need to be content. Contentment occurs when Christ's strength is infused into my weak body,soul, 
and spirit. To INFUSE means to pour, fill, soak, or extract. Every morning when I dip my tea bag 
into boiling water, I witness infusion. How does God enable us to be content? He INFUSES 
contentment into us through his Word. As it seeps into our minds, it transforms us. Just as a cup
 of tea gets stronger when we give it time to to steep, we become more content when we spend time
 in God's word and allow it to seep into our lives, transforming us to be like Him." From "Calm
 my anxious heart" by Linda Dillow --------------------------
 
"According to Ephesians 2:10, you and I "are God's workmanship,

created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in
advance for us to do." When I am not pleased with the talents,
gifts, and abilities God gave me, I remind myself that He is the
Blessed Controller of all things (1 Timothy 6:15)
If I believe this, I also must believe that God

 is the Blessed Controller of my "all things". My appearance. My personality. My gifts and talents. 
In my heart of hearts I long to please God, and it pleases Him when I am content with how
 He created me. Perhaps you, too want to be content, yet you hear the voices that say, 
"Be successful. Be popular. Be beautiful. Be perfect." Oh, my dear friend, stop listening 
to the voices. Listen to God's voice: Is not He your Father, your Creator, who made you
 and formed you? Deut 32:6 Your hands shaped me and made me...Remember that you molded
 me like clay...Did you not...clothe me with skin and flesh and knit me together with bones and
 sinews? Job 10:8-11" By Linda Dillow in "Calm my anxious heart" 

Attitude

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.
Attitude, to me, is more important than facts.   It is more important than
the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures,
than successes, than what other people think or say  or do.  It is more
important than appearance, giftedness, or skill.  It will make or break a
company...a church...a home.  The remarkable thing is we have a choice every
day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day.  We cannot change
our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way.
We cannot change the inevitable.  The only thing we can do is play on the
one string we have, and that is our attitude...I am convinced that life is
10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.   And so it is with
you...we are in charge of our attitudes."--Charles Swindoll

> ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING.........By Francie Baltazar-Schwartz
> 
>   " ...Jerry was always
> in a good  mood and always had something positive to say. When 
> someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any 
> better,  I would be twins!"
>    He was a unique manager because he had several waiters who had
> followed him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason
> the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He was a 
> natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was there 
> telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.
>    Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up 
> to Jerry and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person 
> all of the time. How do you do it?"    Jerry replied, "Each morning I
> wake up and say to myself, "Jerry, you have two choices  today.  You can
> choose
> to be in a good mood or you can choose to be in a bad mood."  I choose to
> be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a
> victim or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every
time
> someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining
> or I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side
of
> life."
>     "Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested.
>     "Yes it is," Jerry said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut
> away all the junk, every situation is a choice.  You choose how you react
to
> situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be
> in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line:  It's your choice how you
live
> life."
>    I reflected on what Jerry said.  Soon thereafter, I left the
> restaurant industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but often
> thought about
> him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.
>     Several years later, I heard that Jerry did something you are never
> supposed to do in a restaurant business:  he left the back door open one
> morning and was held up at gunpoint by three armed robbers. While trying
to
> open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness, slipped off the
> combination. The robbers panicked and shot him.
>     Luckily, Jerry was  found relatively quickly and rushed to the local
> trauma center. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care,
Jerry
> was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his
> body. I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him
how
> he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Wanna see my
> scars?"    I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone
> through  his mind as the robbery took place. "The first thing that went
> through my
> mind was that I should have locked the back door," Jerry replied.  "Then,
> as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices:  I could
choose
> to live, or I could choose to die. I chose to live.
>    "Weren't you scared?  Did you lose consciousness?" I asked. Jerry
> continued, "The paramedics were great.  They kept telling me I was going
> to be  fine. But when they wheeled me into the emergency room and I saw
the
> expressions on the faces of the doctors and  nurses, I got really scared.
> In their eyes, I read, 'He's a dead man. " I knew I  needed to take
action."
>     "What did you do?" I asked.
>     "Well, there was a big, burly nurse shouting questions at me," said
> Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes,' I replied. The
> doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply...I took a
> deep breath and yelled, 'Bullets!'   Over their laughter, I told them, 'I
> am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."
>    Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors,but also because of
> his amazing attitude. I learned from him that every day we have the
> choice to live fully.  Attitude, after all, is everything."

After reading this I got to thinking about how important my attitude 
is in how I live all of life and yet it is more than me trying to 
muster up a good attitude in every situation. I simply can not do 
it in my own strength at least for any length of time.  I need the 
Lord to live His life through me. I need Him to do radical "heart 
surgery" where I need it and give me His perspective. It's about me 
yielding my heart and thought life to God and making moment by 
moment choices that line up with God's principles. May the Lord 
do a beautiful work in our attitudes as we seek Him.

Love,

Paula