Phil 4:11-12

Philippians 4:11-12

New Living Translation (NLT)

11 Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. 12 I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.

Philippians 4:11-12

The Message (MSG)

 

  Actually, I don’t have a sense of needing anything personally. I’ve learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I’m just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I’ve found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am.

Philippians 4:11-12

Amplified Bible (AMP)

11Not that I am implying that I was in any personal want, for I have learned how to be [a] content (satisfied to the point where I am not disturbed or disquieted) in whatever state I am.

    12I know how to be abased and live humbly in straitened circumstances, and I know also how to enjoy plenty and live in abundance. I have learned in any and all circumstances the secret of facing every situation, whether well-fed or going hungry, having a sufficiency and enough to spare or going without and being in want.

Philippians 4:11-12

King James Version (KJV)

 

 11Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.

 12I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

Philippians 4:11-12

New International Version (NIV)

11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.

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My take away:

I sure have a lot of growing to do.  I am not handling this mess the way I want to be but I am asking the Lord to work in my heart so I can do it His way and in His strength.

The issue for me here and now is contentment no matter what.  Will I be content pain or no pain?  AM I CONTENT IF THE PAIN IN MY ARM STAYS CONSTANT “FOR GOOD”?  As in, can I be content if it keeps on feeling like I have a tourniquet or an inflated BP cuff  on my arm 24/7/365 the rest of my life?  Oh my–hard thought.  Could God want to teach me such a thing?  I imagine He might possibly arrange that seeing as nothing appears to be changing or helping in the pain department.  Perhaps it’ll just take more time to heal and perhaps the doctor can find some kind of medicine to help or perhaps not.  Can I believe that God is big enough to give me the grace and peace and help I need for each day, pain or no pain?  Can I trust Him that He has a purpose for the pain, that it somehow is meant to achieve some good purpose beyond my comprehension?  That I can honor and glorify Him in my response to the pain, however long it is with me?   Can I rest contentedly in Him no matter what? I know that the truth is my  contentment must be all wrapped up in Jesus–not my emotions or circumstances…SATISFIED that HE IS MORE THAN ENOUGH…the joy of the Lord my strength.  Can I give Him the pain of TODAY, then keep on doing that, one day at a time?  Yes.  In His strength I can do that and I will do that. 

 I asked, begged, pleaded, implored the Lord to do my surgery for me right from the start.  I told Him, seeing as He was the Great Physician and I was His daughter  and all, that I preferred HE took out the cancer instead of having the surgeon do it.  If He did the job, He wouldn’t need to  disrupt any nerves or lymph nodes or even remove my breast–it could all stay put–just pluck out the cancer and leave the rest.  It sounded like a good arrangement to me.  He wouldn’t need a knife or chemicals or radiation to zap the cancer cells. He wouldn’t hurt my immunity or need to surgically implant a port for IV infusions for a year.  Does He do such things as out-and-out “God plus nothing” healing nowadays or was it limited to long ago when Jesus came to earth? I am not into Benny Hinn type healing services but  I KNOW my great big God can still take away pain and cancer in today’s time when it is His will to do so–with or without doctors.  It’s not like my case is so hard for Him that he needs the assistance of pain medication that isn’t even working for me, chemo, etc.  I know He can use doctors and gives them skill but I sure was hoping He would do the job all by Himself.  I sought the Lord and I fasted and prayed, was anointed with oil and many prayed for me as I did my best with nutrition and detoxification in case He wanted to use that.  I prayed for a miracle and the cancer grew.  God did not work in the way I had hoped so onto Plans B, C, and beyond. I’m having the chemo now then the radiation later — all this stuff that I hate, hate, hate.   Will I trust Him?  Yes. Can I accept and even embrace ALL that  He has for me?  Yes.  Does God make mistakes?  No.  Can I give Him all my disappointments and heartaches and trust Him no matter what?  YES, YES, YES.  I know it is true.  He is God and I am not.

 I had the surgery which has left my arm in this state of constant pain and honestly, I am having a hard time.  It’s not that the pain is so severe that you scream over it, it’s just it’s so constant and, along with a lot of burning, stinging, numbness, and hypersensitivity it feels like getting blood work done and nobody ever takes off the tourniquet when they are finished drawing the blood. So far the pain medications are not working…just side effects with no pain relief.   There are other drugs to try and I suppose I will. Just like the chemo, it’s up to the Lord if the pain medication will work for me or not.

OH PLEASE LORD, couldn’t YOU please remove that strange sensation in my arm?  Pretty please with a cherry of thankfulness no matter what on top? I know that You are good, kind, and loving whether You remove the pain or not but I sure wish you’d do that for me.   Father, again I let go of my life, every cell in my body, my left arm with the invisible tourniquet.  I am not my own, I am Yours. I have been bought with a price.  I yield myself to YOU.  Teach me how to surrender everything over to You with a sweetly trusting heart.  Please train my eyes to be steadfast on You.

Can You also please teach me to be content, Lord?  I am not content.  I don’t like the hard things You are allowing.  I’m like Saran Wrap to You–utterly transparent and You already know how I feel about all this stuff going on.  This pain and the cancer and the treatment for the cancer feels WAAAAAY too hard for me.  All together it is downright overwhelming, Father.  I am asking YOU to take over every last detail, LORD.  Help me.  I feel like I am drowning and the waves keep crashing over my head.  Sometimes it seems like I am in a Category 5 Hurricane in the middle of the ocean without even a little rickety boat or a life preserver.  Can Jesus come on over, walkin’ on water, grab me outta the waves, and rescue me?  I want You to hold me close and not let me go.  Please.

I can’t do this but God can.

Gratefully His,

Paula

Day by Day/ 2 Cor 12:8-10

 

Day by Day 

  1. Day by day, and with each passing moment,
    Strength I find to meet my trials here;
    Trusting in my Father’s wise bestowment,
    I’ve no cause for worry or for fear.
    He, whose heart is kind beyond all measure,
    Gives unto each day what He deems best,
    Lovingly its part of pain and pleasure,
    Mingling toil with peace and rest.
  2. Every day the Lord Himself is near me,
    With a special mercy for each hour;
    All my cares He fain would bear and cheer me,
    He whose name is Counsellor and Pow’r.
    The protection of His child and treasure
    Is a charge that on Himself He laid;
    “As thy days, thy strength shall be in measure,”
    This the pledge to me He made.
  3. Help me then, in every tribulation,
    So to trust Thy promises, O Lord,
    That I lose not faith’s sweet consolation,
    Offered me within Thy holy Word.
    Help me, Lord, when toil and trouble meeting,
    E’er to take, as from a father’s hand,
    One by one, the days, the moments fleeting,
    Till with Christ the Lord I stand.

Source: http://www.hymnal.net/hymn.php/h/713#ixzz1QeToZFbf

 

2 Corinthians 12:8-10

 8 Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. 9 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

My take away:

WAY more than three times–over and over and over–I begged and pleaded with the Lord to take away the cancer and the pain in my arm. Each time He said. “Paula, My grace is sufficient for you.  It is all you need and it is more than enough.  My power shows up extra-good in your weakness.  So, now I can openly share that in myself, I am utterly weak that the power of God be magnified in me.  I can rejoice in the Lord in the midst of my weaknesses and thank God for and praise Him through this journey of walking with Him through the storm of cancer and pain.  He is with me through all the trials and troubles.  When I am weak in myself, then I am strong in the Lord.

I thank You and praise You and worship You with my whole heart, Lord.

The Bend in the Road

 

The Bend in the Road

Author: Helen Steiner Rice
Sometimes we come to life’s crossroads
And we view what we think is the end.
But God has a much wider vision
And he knows that it’s only a bend-

The road will go on and get smoother
And after we’ve stopped for a rest,
The path that lies hidden beyond us
Is often the path that is best.

So rest and relax and grow stronger,
Let go and let God share your load
And have faith in a brighter tomorrow-
You’ve just come to a bend in the road.

 
These are a few of the quotes from the book “A Bend in the Road” by David Jeremiah that were meaningful to me:
 
“No matter how sharp the bend in the road, no matter how disruptive the moment (those unanticipated events, most of which one would usually have chosen to avoid had it been possible), everything that happens to us is for the eternal purposes of God.  He is training us through the process.  Like any worthy parent, He wants to teach us what we cannot learn any other way.”
 
“As an old man, looking back on one’s life. it’s one of the things that strikes you most forcibly–that the only thing that’s taught one anything is suffering.  Not success, not happiness, not anything like that.  The only thing that really teaches one what life’s about–the joy of understanding, the joy of coming in contact with what life really signifies–is suffering, affliction.”
–Malcolm Muggeridge
 
“God, You have allowed this in my life.  I don’t understand it, but I know that it couldn’t have happened to me unless it was filtered through Your loving Hands.  So, this thing is from You.”
 
“The Father is never closer to the vine than when He is pruning it.”
 
“We all ask ‘why’ questions.  They’re a natural part of being human.  But we can ask better questions–we can ask ‘what’ questions: ‘What
Lord?  What would You have me to do?  ‘What are You trying to teach me?'”
 
“I didn’t sign up for this!  I know that I sang, ‘Wherever He leads. I’ll go’, but can’t we at least check the weather report first?  How could He lead me into a storm like this one?’ 
Just cling to the knowledge that you could be in no safer place than a storm of His making.  You are safer and more secure in the tempest with Jesus than you could ever be in the calmest place without Him.  That calm, you’ll come to realize, is an illusion, and the storm is for a good purpose and a short duration.”
 

Ephesians 5:20 Giving thanks to God in EVERYTHING

“One act of thanksgiving, when things go wrong with us, is worth a thousand thanks when things are agreeable to our inclinations.”

Ephesians 5:20

King James Version (KJV)

 20Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ;

Ephesians 5:20

New International Version (NIV)

20 always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Ephesians 5:20

Amplified Bible (AMP)

20At all times and for everything giving thanks in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ to God the Father.

Ephesians 5:20

New Living Translation (NLT)

20 And give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Ephesians 5:20

The Message (MSG)

  Sing songs from your heart to Christ. Sing praises over everything, any excuse for a song to God the Father in the name of our Master, Jesus Christ.

Ephesians 5:20

Young’s Literal Translation (YLT)

 20giving thanks always for all things, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, to the God and Father;

“When God Doesn’t Make Sense”

We Human Beings Are Incredibly Precious to God

By Dr. James Dobson
Excerpt from his book When God Doesn’t Make Sense

http://myfamilytalk.com/faith-in-tough-times/god-always-makes-sense-pt3.aspx

One of the most breathtaking concepts in all of Scripture is the revelation that God knows each of us personally and that we are in His mind both day and night. There is simply no way to comprehend the full implications of this love by the King of kings and Lord of lords. He is all-powerful and all-knowing, majestic and holy, from everlasting to everlasting. Why would He care about us—about our needs, our welfare, our fears? We have been discussing situations in which God doesn’t make sense. His concern for us mere mortals is the most inexplicable of all.

Job also had difficulty understanding why the Creator would be interested in human beings. He asked, “What is man that you make so much of him, that you give him so much attention, that you examine him every morning…?” (Job 7:17-18). David contemplated the same question when he wrote, “What is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?” (Psalm 8:4). And again in Psalm 139: “O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord” (vv. 1-4). What an incredible concept!

Not only is the Lord “mindful” of each one of us, but He describes Himself throughout Scripture as our Father. In Luke 11:13 we read, “If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!” Psalm 103:13 says, “As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him.” But on the other hand, He is likened to a mother in Isaiah 66:13: “As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you.”

Being a parent of two children, both now grown, I can identify with these parental analogies. They help me begin to comprehend how God feels about us. Shirley and I would give our lives for Danae and Ryan in a heartbeat if necessary. We pray for them every day, and they are never very far from our thoughts. And how vulnerable we are to their pain! Can it be that God actually loves His human family infinitely more than we, “being evil,” can express to our own flesh and blood? That’s what the Word teaches.

An incident occurred during our son’s early childhood that illustrated for me this profound love of the heavenly Father. Ryan had a terrible ear infection when he was three years old that kept him (and us) awake most of the night. Shirley bundled up the toddler the next morning and took him to see the pediatrician. This doctor was an older man with very little patience for squirming kids. He wasn’t overly fond of parents, either.

After examining Ryan, the doctor told Shirley that the infection had adhered itself to the eardrum and could only be treated by pulling the scab loose with a wicked little instrument. He warned that the procedure would hurt, and instructed Shirley to hold her son tightly on the table. Not only did this news alarm her, but enough of it was understood by Ryan to send him into orbit. It didn’t take much to do that in those days.

Shirley did the best she could. She put Ryan on the examining table and attempted to hold him down. But he would have none of it. When the doctor inserted the pick-like instrument in his ear, the child broke loose and screamed to high heaven. The pediatrician then became angry at Shirley and told her if she couldn’t follow instructions she’d have to go get her husband. I was in the neighborhood and quickly came to the examining room. After hearing what was needed, I swallowed hard and wrapped my 200-pound, 6-foot-2-inch frame around the toddler. It was one of the toughest moments in my career as a parent.

What made it so emotional was the horizontal mirror that Ryan was facing on the back side of the examining table. This made it possible for him to look directly at me as he screamed for mercy. I really believe I was in greater agony in that moment than my terrified little boy. It was too much. I turned him loose–and got a beefed-up version of the same bawling-out that Shirley had received a few minutes earlier. Finally, however, the grouchy pediatrician and I finished the task.

I reflected later on what I was feeling when Ryan was going through so much suffering. What hurt me was the look on his face. Though he was screaming and couldn’t speak, he was “talking” to me with those big blue eyes. He was saying, “Daddy! Why are you doing this to me? I thought you loved me. I never thought you would do anything like this! How could you…? Please, please! Stop hurting me!”

It was impossible to explain to Ryan that his suffering was necessary for his own good, that I was trying to help him, that it was love that required me to hold him on the table. How could I tell him of my compassion in that moment? I would gladly have taken his place on the table, if possible. But in his immature mind, I was a traitor who had callously abandoned him.

Then I realized that there must be times when God also feels our intense pain and suffers along with us. Wouldn’t that be characteristic of a Father whose love was infinite? How He must hurt when we say in confusion, “How could You do this terrible thing, Lord? Why me? I thought I could trust You! I thought You were my friend!” How can He explain within our human limitations that our agony is necessary, that it does have a purpose, that there are answers to the tragedies of life? I wonder if He anticipates the day when He can make us understand what was occurring in our time of trial. I wonder if He broods over our sorrows.

Some readers might doubt that an omnipotent God with no weaknesses and no needs is vulnerable to this kind of vicarious suffering. No one can be certain. We do know that Jesus experienced the broad range of human emotions, and then He told Philip, “Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father” (John 14:9). Remember that Jesus was “deeply moved in spirit and troubled” when Mary wept over Lazarus. He also wept as He looked over the city of Jerusalem and spoke of the sorrow that would soon come upon the Jewish people. Likewise, we are told that the Spirit intercedes for us now with “groans that words cannot express” (Romans 8:26). It seems logical to assume, therefore, that God, the Father, is passionately concerned about His human “family” and shares our grief in those unspeakable moments “when sorrows like sea billows roll.” I believe He does.

“When Life is Hard”

“He must become greater; I must become less.” John 3:30
 
After listening to the CD series a friend loaned me with the same title and author, I just started reading an excellent book, “When Life is Hard”, by James MacDonald.  Here are a few quotes from the book:
 
“A trial is a painful circumstance allowed by God to change my conduct and my character.
My conduct–that’s what I do.  And then to a deeper level, my character–that’s who I am.
Trials are about what God is adjusting in the actions I choose, and what God is doing to the character that helps me choose those actions.”
 
“I’m fond of the saying that ‘God’s love is not a pampering love; God’s love is a perfecting love.’  God does not say, “Here, Billy.  Have some more cupcakes.  Take the one with extra icing.’  That’s not God.  Your Grandma maybe, but not God.”
 
“When life is hard, stop and ask God, ‘What do you want me to do?”
——-
Paula
 
If you are a subscriber to my blog, there was a glitch yesterday and if you did not receive notification of the  “Suffering is the Little Sheepdog…” post,  here it is:

5 More Heartfelt Responses to God’s Will

Roy Lessin

 

5 More Heartfelt Responses Concerning God’s Will

 (If “for love’s sake” is the right motivation, why do something with a wrong motive?)

Lord, my heart cries out in a love response to You. I can’t think of anything higher or greater than responding to Your will for love’s sake. May Your love move me on, compel me to reach out to others, and to seek Your heart more and more.

 (If what you’re seeking is moving you away from God’s heart, why pursue it?)

Lord, I turn my back to all that would turn me away from You. I come to You, I run to You,  I press in to know You more and to lay hold of the purpose of why You laid hold of me.

 (If the outcome is not God’s best, why settle for it?)

Lord, I refuse to be content with a life that is run-of-the-mill, mediocre, or second-rate. I choose the best that love has to give—I choose You. I choose Your will. I choose Your best. I choose Your glory. I will continue in the race that You have set before me and run it with all my heart.

 (If God has told you to wait, why push forward?)

Lord, I lay down my pushiness, my desire to control and manipulate people and circumstances in order to have things turn out the way I want them to. I wait upon You who does all things well. I wait on Your time, I wait on Your way, I wait on Your outcome.

 (If God has told you to go, why hold back?)

Lord, where You send me I will go—thankfully, wholly, speedily, contentedly, peacefully, joyfully, lovingly.

 Let love be your greatest aim. 1 Corinthians 14:1 TLB

Suffering is Like the Little Sheepdog…

 

“Suffering is like the little sheepdog that runs at your heels to get you to run into the loving arms of your Shepherd” —Joni Eareckson Tada
 

 

Isa 33:2 O Lord, be gracious to us, we long for you.  Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress.

2Co 1:3  Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and the God of all comfort,

2Co 1:4  He comforts us in all our trouble, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in every trouble, through the comfort with which   

               we ourselves are comforted by God.

 
 
 
 
 
This song, “Blessing in the Thorn”, really ministered to me this morning.  It’s short: check it out.  It’s a treasure I think you guys will appreciate too.    Thank you, Verona for mentioning it to me.
 
 
 
Another dear friend shared this with me in an email and with her permission, I thought it would be a blessing to others too:
 
I brought a biography of Joni Eareckson Tada to read while here…called The God I Love…some things that I wrote down may give you food for thought during the night also…”I need to be caught up in God’s thoughts about me, not my thoughts about Him.”
“Will I release myself to believe that the joy of the Lord is big enough to enrapture and enthrall me, despite my circumstances?  I may never accept my situation (her paralysis), but I CAN embrace God.  I can embrace Him as I think of His greater affliction.  And as I embrace Him I can’t but help to love His will.  I have faith not in my ability to accept this situation, but faith to embrace Christ, to trust Him BECAUSE of my problems.” 
“God permits things He hates to accomplish something He loves.”  (the latter being my growing in my need of Him)”
 
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I am interviewing myself this morning  😉 –talking my thoughts aloud on paper and thinking them through. 
 
So far the new pain medicines (oral and topical) I’ve taken the last three days  for the disrupted arm nerves has done nothing for the pain.  The oral medication can be increased but I am hesitant due to the unsteadiness on my feet that it has caused.
 
Will I trust the One Who is totally able to remove the cancer and heal my nerves and take away the pain in my arm in a blink of the eye but has chosen not to do that so far? 
Yes. 
 
How about if it’s permanent and I continue to constantly feel like I have either an inflated BP cuff or a tourniquet on my arm the rest of my life? How about if the cancer takes over completely despite all we do?  How about if a lot of suffering is yet ahead and it does not quit?
Those things may or may not happen but I will CHOOSE to trust God through it all.  God is in control and in charge of everything He brings into my life.  I might not understand it but it is for some good purpose of His.  I will cling to His Word. I am His child.  He will never leave me or forsake me.  He makes no mistakes.  His grace is sufficient and He will give me all the grace I need.
 
Who is in control?
God is.
 
He’s in charge of this entire mess?  The aggressive cancer, the pain, the treatment that leaves me feeling so terrible?  What’s the point, Paula?
I sure do not understand how all this works, but obviously God has allowed all these things for some good purpose.  He is the One that promises in His Word that He makes ALL THINGS work together for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose.  It’s not up to me to figure everything out, just walk closely with Him.
 
Some things that I know to be true:
 
 
Who I Am In Christ

Biblical Truths to “Practice Believing”

I AM GOD’S…

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possession Genesis 17:8/ 1Cor 6:20

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child John 1:12

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workmanship Ephesians 2:10

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friend James 2:23

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temple 1 Cor 3:16/ 6:16

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vessel 2 Timothy 2:2

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co-laborer 1 Timothy 5:18

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witness Acts 1:8

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soldier 2 Timothy 2:3

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ambassador 2 Cor 5:20

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building 1 Cor 3:9

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husbandry 1 Cor 3:9

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minister/instrument Acts 26:16 / 1 Tim 4:6

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chosen Ephesians 1:4

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beloved Romans 1:7/ 2 Thess 2:13

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precious jewel Malachi 3:17

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heritage 1 Peter 5:3I HAVE BEEN…

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redeemed by the blood Rev 5:9

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set free from sin /condemnation Rom 8:1-2

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set free from Satan’s control Col 1:13

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set free from Satan’s kingdom Eph 2

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chosen before foundation of world Eph 1:4

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predestined to be like Jesus Ephesians 1:11

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forgiven of all my trespasses Col 2:13

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washed in the blood of the Lamb Rev 1:5

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given a sound mind 2 Timothy 1:7

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given the Holy Spirit 2 Cor 1:22

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adopted into God’s family Romans 8:15

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justified freely by his grace Romans 3:24

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given all things pertaining to life 2 Pet 1:3

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given great and precious promises 2 Pet 1:4

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given ministry of reconciliation 2 Cor 1:22

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authority over the power of enemy Lk 10:19

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access to God Ephesians 3:12

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been given wisdom Ephesians 1:8I AM…

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complete in him Colossians 2:10

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free forever from sin’s power Romans 6:14

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sanctified 1 Cor 6:11

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meet for the Master’s use 2 Timothy 2:21

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loved eternally 1 Peter 1:5 /

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eternally kept in the palm of his hand Jn 10:29

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kept from falling Jude 1:24

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kept by the power of God 1 Peter 1:5

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not condemned Romans 8:1-2

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one with the Lord 1 Cor 6:17

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on my way to heaven John 14:6

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quickened by his mighty power Eph 2:1

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seated in heavenly places Eph 1:3

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the head and not the tail Deut 28:13

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light in the darkness Matthew 5:14

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candle in a dark place Matthew 5:15

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city set on a hill Matthew 5:14

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salt of the earth Matthew 5:13

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his sheep Ps 23 / Psalms 100:3/ John 10:14

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a citizen of heaven 1 Peter 2:11

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hidden with Christ in God Psalms 32:7

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protected from the evil one 1 John 5:18

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kept by the power of God 1 Peter 1:5

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secure in Christ Jn 10:28-29

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set on a Rock Psalms 40:2

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more-than-a-conqueror Romans 8:37

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born again 1 Peter 1:23

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a victor 1 John 5:4

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healed by his strips Is 53:6

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covered by blood of Jesus Rev 12:11, 1 Pet 1:19

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sheltered under his wing Psalms 91:4

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hidden in secret place of the Almighty Ps 91:1I HAVE…

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access to the Father Romans 5:2

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a home in heaven waiting for me Jn 14:1-2

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all things in Christ 2 Cor 5:17

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a living hope 1 Peter 1:3

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an anchor to my soul Hebrews 6:19

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a hope that is sure and steadfast Heb 6:19

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authority to tread on serpents Luke 10:19

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power to witness Acts 1:8

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the tongue of the learned Isaiah 50:4

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the mind of Christ 1 Cor 2:16

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boldness and access Hebrews 10:19

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peace with God Romans 5:1

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faith as a grain of mustard seed Luke 17:6I CAN…

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do all things through Christ Philp 4:13

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find mercy and grace to help Heb 4:16

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come boldly to the throne of grace Heb 4:16

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quench all the firey darts Eph 6:16

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declare liberty to captives Isaiah 61:1

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pray always and everywhere Luke 21:36

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defeat (overcome) the enemy Rev 12:11

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tread Satan under foot Rom 16:20I CANNOT…

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be separated from God’s love Rom 8:35-39

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be perish or be lost John 10:28, John 3:16

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be moved Psalms 16:8

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be taken out of my Father’s hand John 10:29

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be charged or accused Romans 8:33

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be condemned 1 Cor 11:32

Riding in the Back Seat and Letting God Drive

Psa. 94:19  When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul
 
 Isa. 26:3-4  You will keep in him perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.  Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord, is the Rock eternal.

 
I love word pictures.  My dear husband has lovingly reminded me at different times how little children ride in the back seat of a car as their Daddy drives.  You don’t see them fretting, “Hey, watch out for that car over there, Dad”, “You missed our turn, are  you sure you know where you are going?”,   “Woa, slow down there, Dad–you are going way too fast!”, etc.  Nope, you usually see them in the rear view mirror, happily occupying themselves with toys and books, interacting with siblings, singing song, and falling asleep.  They leave all the driving to Daddy.  I gotta stay in that back seat, stop telling God how to drive, resist inclinations to unbuckle my seat belt and jump up to the driver’s seat and yank the wheel from Him when we take the twisty turns, and instead, just rest peacefully, going along for the “ride” God is taking me on.  God has an “Eternal Record” of being an expert driver and I can leave all the driving to Him, just like a child.  🙂 
 
My natural inclination as an RN is to research, research, research and I am learning, that while it is good to be educated, I also have to limit myself and turn everything over to God and rest and trust Him both in the process and for the results.  While it does it’s work eradicating cancer, the risks and potential  damage of the course I am with chemo and radiation  is daunting. Last week I read a package insert for an injection I gave myself to stimulate my bone marrow so my white count stays up treatments.  A flu can kill ya if your white count goes too low.  The information warned of risks that are mind boggling like that first time users can experience fatal spleen rupture after the first dose and to get medical help immediately should certain symptoms occur.  Rare side effect  though it is, it makes me think: “YIKES”!  I gave myself the shot and left the results in God’s Lap.  So far my spleen made it through.  One drug I will be on for a year can do significant heart damage as it works to also target and kill components of the cancer that are so aggressive… I commit my heart and every cell in my body to His care.  After two months on the Gerson Therapy I can honestly say that I physically felt like I was extremely healthy and back in my “20s” again (other than having a terrible kind of breast cancer that was still growing).  I sure can’t say that any more–I feel lousey but I am trying to the best of my ability, to put  this whole cancer thing, my health, and my life in His Hands AND KEEP IT THERE!
 
I have had numerous yukky side effects from the chemo and I am also trying to place each of them in His Hands and “let go”. I have felt very ill overall and the continuing arm pain in particular wears me down.  I saw a doctor and am on some different medicines for that pain which resulted from disrupted nerves during the surgery probably but the results are not impressive so far.  It could be MUCH, MUCH worse though.  I am thankful for His new mercies every day.  I am grateful for His faithfulness and His awesome attributes. I can’t “fight God” if it’s His will to take me Home via the cancer but I can fight cancer for all I am worth using the tools He gives me if it’s His will to heal me and so I am. As far as I know, He will heal me and I am planning and praying and operating to that end. It is His very nature to heal and I am absolutely confident in His ability to do just that for me but I also know  He has bigger things in mind than just my comfort and healing and  “God’s timing is always on time!”
 
I would have loved to have been “God’s Poster Child” sharing that He can sometimes use nutrition and detoxification to heal people of cancer and that there truly are viable alternatives to conventional therapy but it was not to be.  The  Gerson Therapy was very difficult but it does work for some people yet many people would have rather die than do it (not me).  It was a Picnic in the Park compared to this.  I think one of the messages I have for this world is simply that God is ALWAYS good no matter what He allows and we can trust Him completely no matter what.  May I be a trophy of God’s grace!
 
God’s beloved Paula
 
 

Roy Lessin

 

5 Heartfelt Responses Concerning God’s WillBy Roy Lessin

 (If God isn’t leading you to a certain place, why go there?)

Lord, I am following You. I will not run around in circles trying to find my own way. I place my feet in Your footsteps. I take the place that You have prepared for me. I will faithfully remain where You have placed me until You make it clear it is time to move on.

 (If God hasn’t asked you to do a certain task, why perform it?)

Lord, I will only carry what You ask me to lift. I lay down my agenda and my ideas of what I think needs to be done. I say “no” to all stress and striving and “yes” to the peace that comes from obeying what You are asking me to do.

(If God hasn’t directed you to speak something, why declare it?)

Lord, put Your words in my mouth. I want to speak words that are fitting for the moment—the right word, the true word, the edifying word, the anointed word, the word in due season—the word from Your heart to others.

(If God wouldn’t be pleased with your choice, why choose it?)

Lord, I choose those things that will bring a smile to Your face.  My greatest pleasure is to please You.

(If “for His glory” is the right reason, why do something for the wrong reason?)

Lord, I love Your righteousness. I want to live right, think right, and act right. I want my motivation to be for Your sake, and my attitudes to be a reflection of who You are. May others want to know You more because of what they see of Your life in me.

May the name of our Lord Jesus Christ be glorified and become more glorious through and in you. 2 Thessalonians 1:12 AMP

 Isa 33:2 O Lord, be gracious to us, we long for you.  Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress.

This is quite an adventure God has me on!  I would have never, EVER, EVER (!!!) picked this particular trial for me but God knows better than I do just what to allow in my life and I am hanging my hat on that fact.

In His Will

In His Will

“First, He brought me here; it is by His will I am in this strait place; in that fact I will rest.

I am here—BY GOD’S APPOINTMENT

Next, He will keep me here in His love, and give me grace to behave as His child.

I am here—IN HIS KEEPING

Then, He will make the trial a blessing, teaching me the lessons He intends me to learn, and working in me the grace He means to bestow.

I am here—UNDER HIS TRAINING

Last, in His good time, He can bring me out again—how and when He knows.

I am here—FOR HIS TIME”

-Andrew Murray